Reminiscing Ephemeral Memories . . .

Believing Right or . . . Left?

2011-11-06T09:31:00.008+11:00

Have seen several "unfortunate", "aimless, or "lost" souls here in this small town.

And I have bumped into these 'two particular people' on the bus for 2 - 3 times now.

Today I saw one of the two who usually dress in a way that I could tell they are living in some sort of lifestyle that is trying to find their 'identity', 'peace', meaning to life or "something" by secluding themselves from the world, from the surrounding people, which certain beliefs/groups encourage their followers to do so.

But what I saw was that they sacrificed their comfort to pursue the so called 'peace' or 'identity'. They wandered around, from place to place, dress in a certain way, looked solemn and maybe even choosing not to clean themselves daily, which a very successful person did that too as he or they thought that in this way they would have a better life and health by letting "nature" takes place ...

Today when I saw the guy on the bus I felt 'frustrated' and at the same time pitied him.

He may Believe that by living in this lifestyle might help him to find true peace, identity or meaning to life!

But is there joy in his heart? Is he happy? Has he found the true peace?

As I look at him from behind and thinking that "what he believed in have 'robbed' him of a comfortable and abundant life"...

Suddenly a revelation dawned on Me!

The question came to mind was "Am I Believing Right too"? Am I believing the word of God totally? Every Single Word/Promise of God?!

Why do I pity him yet I myself is believing many lies that the enemies have been telling me instead of believing the Word of God!

There are so many times that I doubted God's Word, His love, His promises, instead I "believed" the lies of the enemies! All these have also been robbing me of the Abundant Life that Jesus has promised!!!

The deep thought for the day is "Believing in the Right or 'Left' Principle/Source verily determines how One lives and what he will get out from this journey on earth!"

Thus, Am I Believing Right??

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56.

2011-09-30T23:10:00.004+10:00

30.09.2011.

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You'd be 56 year young...

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If Heaven is as Real as Earth,

There would be a Celebration with the Heavenly Host?!

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Happy Birthday, Ma Ma!

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S t i l l ....... ... !

Recurrence of . . . Sad Dreams

2011-07-27T12:54:00.010+10:00

Dreams with real emotions are back ...

The feeling of Hopefulness followed by utter Disappointment and Sadness was Real and Intense!

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. . . Can I be Awaken from This Reality, instead !? . . .

Three Years After . . .

2011-06-25T11:33:00.004+10:00

Three Years had Past!

Still Missing You Very Much!

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Hope you are always Happy with Jesus!

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Shall Meet You Again!

*Yeok Ding*

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Find more Guang Liang songs at Myspace Music

Next Practice Session?

2011-05-26T18:27:00.011+10:00

Haven't touched this beloved for a while, maybe more than a year?

. . . Those practice sessions were fun.

* * *

Embarrassingly, Bim always got out of beat and tune! . . .

*Ha Ha*

These Friends were very patient with me, but who knows if they were "scolding" me in their hearts for wasting their time!

*Hee Hee*

*Kept trying to Strum to the beat, to find a new strumming pattern, to sing in-tune, learn to when enter to the song, learn Beat-Counting and re-learning everything again...*

*Ha Ha Ha*

Hhhmm...!

Not sure if there is another chance to have a practice session again with these good friends!

Hopefully there is a Chance in the future!

Meanwhile, this beloved will rest in the Case until a Time and Chance Come. . . !

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And these Mickey picks will only have a parade until the Time comes!

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Looking forward to The "Future Jamming Session". Hopefully I'd have improved by then, no more out of beat or tune!

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Will there be another gang of friends that have regularly "practice session" in the new place?

Pearl-Milk-Tea?

2011-05-25T18:53:00.006+10:00

Gonna enjoy pearl drinks before leaving to a place that is far more remote than My Kampung!

*Sigh...*

"Have I gotten my treat of Milk Tea with Pearl? Can't remember. . . ?"

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Recently Watched Series...

2011-05-17T20:48:00.005+10:00

Watched the ending parts of 2 series . . .

#1 Eternal Happiness (2002) [episodes #17-32]

- Good, Happy Ending -

#2 Lofty Waters Verdant Bow (2002) [episode #20]

- Very SaD Ending! -

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. . . Movies can leave strong impression, especially SaD ones! . . .

F.r.u.s.t.r.a.t..i.o.n.

2011-03-16T16:44:00.005+11:00

F ! r ! u s ! t ! r ! a ! t ! e ! d !
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Unsuccessful Attemptsss...

2011-03-02T21:37:00.007+11:00

Many applications had been sent but no Reply . . . yet!

SiGh!

Is My C. V. too Weak?!?

. . .

Several attempts have also been made to bake a Yummy Chocolate Lava Cake, but Failed SuCCessFully!

SiGh!

. . .

What am I good at?

Looks like I am Not Good in A Lot of Things!

Can't think of any of my "Strength"! !

But . . . I still need to Try . . . !

Hopefully One Day I'll make a Cute(r) & Yummy Doraemon Cake!

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? W h e n I s T h e T i m e ?

Doraemon And Nemo

2011-02-20T20:42:00.010+11:00

Thank you for the Story! Had a better understanding of the story, which I thought the content was slightly different!

Well. . . . .

Nonetheless, a Story always has an Ending, which can be a Sad One!

Maybe the "Best" Ending for the Entire Story should be 'This Way'!

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Wishing Doraemon a Wonderful, Joyful and Happy Life in the World of Doraemon!

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- Nemo -

31.01.2011 12:01 a.m.

2011-01-31T03:00:00.006+11:00

2.0.1.1.

2011-01-01T01:36:00.006+11:00

Another year has passed!

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And A New Year has just Arrived!

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Maybe I should write down some New Year's resolutions and "tick" or "cross" the list 364 days later

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Happy New Year!

May This Year Be A Great Year, that you'll be filled with God's Love & Grace!

. : Knowing that He loves you Unconditionally! : .

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Two in One . . .

2010-12-17T13:01:00.004+11:00

Thought # 1

"OHHH!!! That Story Actually Came from That Series! ! !"

I SEE!!!

But background is different?!?!

"What is Wrong seemed "Right"?!?

-_-"

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Thought # 2

"Human ain't like a Computer, There is No DEL Button! Though I Wish!"

But Hang On, nowadays, even Deleted Files can be Retrieved!!

H m m m m m m m . . .

Mario Loves Eating Me!

2010-11-23T21:58:00.005+11:00

Invisible Mario has been my faithful friend for these few weeks.

He has been chasing me to 'bite & eat' me!

This is because Mushrooms & Mould have grown all over me!

*Wing*wing*Wing*

. . .

Need to communicate with Human!

Need to find some InTeResTing Things to Do!

Need to . . . !

. . .

Ohhh, Mario!!!

M. Chan

2010-11-22T23:17:00.002+11:00

Thanks to 1Borneo management for inviting H.K. artists since its opening.

On 6th Nov 2010 four artists were here to promote a TVB series.

And I have the privilege to shake M. Chan's hand! (Yiipeee!!!)

He was very Charming, Cool, Friendly & Warm!

I Like!

:) :) :)

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If I Have a Time Machine!

2010-11-22T03:38:00.002+11:00

The 'Season' of Day Dreaming is here again!

Dreaming If I could have a Time Machine to go back to the Days and Years that I wish to start all over again.

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For this Moment, I would want to go back to year 2003-2004!

To Start Over again The Life in Melbourne!

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Perhaps I would have . . . ?

Perhaps I could have not done . . . ?

Perhaps things would be different . . . ?

Perhaps I could meet . . . ?

Perhaps . . . Perhaps . . . Perhaps . . .

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I can only "Dream & Wish"!

But, At least . . . . . !

Seek 1st the Kingdom of God?

2010-11-04T13:24:00.005+11:00

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
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Question: What is the kingdom of God?
Answer: Serving? Mission? Doing things for God?
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Romans 14:17 For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit,
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Now I know what is "seek first the kingdom of God! Is to seek Righteousness, which I have in Christ Jesus, and Peace and Joy in the Holy Spirit!!! All these while I thought I have to serve, do mission, and do this and that to seek first the kingdom of God then all those blessings will be added to me! No, but is to seek first the righteousness in Christ, and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit!!
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Thus, Seek First the Kingdom of God is to make sure Every Day I know I am Righteous in Christ and my heart is in Peace and Joy in the Holy Spirit!!
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(This can also be a challenge, as I'm not a joyful person and always not in peace! Ha Ha! *Difficult Bim*)
. . .
Have been blessed and set free by listening to sermons on Grace of God! My Walk with God is, continually, set free from Religiosity (must do this and that to please God & seek His kingdom, if not I'm Sinning, etc etc). "Religion" has put me in bondage all these while. I am not a strong person (I'm tofu) to do this and that for His kingdom, thus, led me to self-condemnation.
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Thank God for His words, Thank God for the people whom He raises to expound on His word!
Thank God for J. Prince, through him, I can understand God's heart and Word more, and more!
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(When one have the righteousness in Christ and the peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, surely serving and doing mission are the natural "act" rather than the Qualification to be Blessed).

5 a.m.

2010-11-02T19:12:00.003+11:00

Have been awaken at 5 a.m. for the past few days.

Mind & heart is disturbed.

Could it be due to Grandma's fall and fractured bone?

Or because I have been listening to Grace sermons & Resting in God, hence, the enemy is trying to pull me down?

-_-'

*SiGh*

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Rest in God's peace!

24th October 2010

2010-10-25T03:18:00.003+11:00

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Two Years Ago, on This Day!

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And A Moment Later, Will be The Reunion Day!

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My Beloved Cars

2010-10-20T02:58:00.004+11:00

My First Car - Honda Jazz - Silver

Sept 2004 - Feb 2009

Good Lessons were learnt from buying my First 'First Hand' Car.

Glad that I learnt it at an early stage.

Question: Was it really needed to buy a 1st hand car at that stage & age?

Also, the process of purchasing it taught me a good lesson.

Salesmen would Do Anything to earn sales!

And I think girls are always victims of salesmen, especially someone like me!

I think I have a sign on my forehand saying "Please Rip Me Off"!

But I know God will bless me back in many folds! Amen!

. . .

My Beloved Car after the Jazz

Mini Cooper!

- 2009 -

And I was "cheated & ripped off" too in purchasing this car!

GREaaattTT!?

Nevertheless, I loved it very much!

And God has blessed me with an Angelic buyer for me to sell it off!

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My Next Beloved Car Shall Be!?

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Have a Guess!?

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Can't wait to Own It!

Looking forward, very much, to drive it to enjoy "Freedom and Liberty"!

Car has been my daily companion for the past years of solitude!

A square space for me to Breathe, to heave sighs and be away from the "Reality"!

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Double, Twice, Tandem, Two, Dua, 2? ?

2010-10-07T16:34:00.009+11:00

"A particular Incident had to happen TWICE, Why? ?"
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1st incident of Lost Ticket: Placed the parking ticket in the jacket's pocket and it dropped out while taking the mobile phone out in a Big Shopping centre!
End result: Found it with God's Grace & Favour!
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2nd incident of Lost ticket: Put the parking ticket near the car door and it fell off when the door was opened. This incident happened 2-3 weeks after the 1st incident.
End result: God kept the ticket there too! Surely it's God's Grace!
Lesson Learned: Put parking ticket at a safe place! - Don't "assume" it is safe, Don't be lazy, Don't be careless and for the sake of convenience!
. : : .
1st incident of Accidental File Deletion: Thought some files were transferred from my hard drive into sis' computer, hence deleted it AND worst more, very hastily my hand clicked "empty recycle bin". I had never been so efficient in deleting and emptying recycle bin BUT this time was an exception, exception ... then ReALiSeD ... OH NO!!!
End result: Found a way to recover them back. Thank God for His Grace! But had a minor heart attack!
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2nd incident of Accidental File Deletion: Deleted sis' iPhone's Important notes, calendar and contacts! And this happened also 3 weeks apart from the 1st incident of Accidental deletion!
End result: Am still waiting for God's miracle to restore the Important Data! I still couldn't recover using any program and not even from the iTunes backup!
:( . . . SIGH ! ! ! . . . :(
Lesson Learned: See and Read Files and Instructions Carefully! Don't Assume!! Must Pay Attention to small messages and Be more Detail!
. : : .
Why do I have to learn One Particular Lesson Twice within a short time frame?
What is God trying to tell me??
Sigh, I must now learn my lesson from the very 1st Incident!
Maybe Twice will nail the Message hard into me! ?
:(
Oh Daddy in Heaven, please Help me to recover the data!
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Happy (55th) Birthday Mama!

2010-09-30T17:26:00.002+10:00

Wonder how did God and Angels in heaven celebrated Mama's Birthday!

@_@"

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Happy Happy Happy Birthday Cutey Little Mama!!!

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Hope You are having a Wonderful Day!

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~ 'Til We Meet Again ~

B and M's Wedding & Reunion 180910

2010-09-27T11:13:00.007+10:00

- First attempt in video making -

"Failed" - says Tong Tong.

- Take Two ! -

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Video-making (with Mac iMovie) can be fun ... and time-consuming too!

Note: Quality of the pictures is compromised due to several reasons.

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- Putting pictures into 'perspective' -

Hope this video will re-live the 2-day K.L. trip on a digital brain. . .

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Enjoy

A Meet-up after 3- and 6- Years!

2010-09-19T14:56:00.002+10:00

At KLIA airport now after 2 days of meet-up with good old friends from Melbourne. Thanks to Mr & Mrs Ben Wong for giving us the opportunity to catch up again after we last said Good-Bye in year 2004 & 2008. And Now it is the time to say "Good-Bye" Again!! Sad moment kicks in again! :( 48 hrs passed just like 48 mins. So, when will we meet up again? Perhaps at the next wedding?!

. . .

It is a great blessing to be able to study overseas and meet people from different parts of the world! But it can also be a very painful moment when it is the time to part to continue our own journey in different parts of the world! The Great Friendship built have to "Pause" at that point of Time! And may (or may not) "Resume" when the right time comes again! Which I Do Not know When will it be!

. . .

That's (my) L. I. F. E.! I have learnt thus far that:

- Happy Moments last only for a Short While, And there comes the Sad Moments that seemed to last for a longer time!

- Can't Always get what I wish to! But Moments that I very much Hoped not to Come had Come!

- Etc, Etc, Etc, Sad, Etc . . . . . .

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Anyway, Congrates to Mr & Mrs Ben Wong! The wedding was Great! It was a Happy moment to witness their Big Day! Happy smiles are seen all over their faces! Surely they'll have a Great Journey together!! Wish them A Great & Happy Life Together with Everlasting Love!

Is The Grass on the Other Side Really Greener ? ?

2010-09-08T02:06:00.006+10:00

Had a chat with Sis about what should have been done in the past, so called, to have a "better" future...!

But How would we know that the 'Alternative Choices/Paths' would be better than what Had Been Chosen and Walked??

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Grass on the other side of the pasture always 'looks' Greener!

But is it always Greener (and Better)??

It May Not be!

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God knows what is Best for those Who Loves Him!

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Thank God for His Blessings and Guidance Thus Far!

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- Will Love & Appreciate the People, especially Love Ones, and Things we have! -

A Certain Song To A Certain Friend

2010-09-03T20:17:00.008+10:00

And so, certain songs can speak what my heart felt in the past few years.

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To Some Friends, this song would be it: 我.太.難.被.感.動. (P. Nan)

I'm not all perfect, I'm with flaws too ...

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And to Certain Friends (including Buddies): 愛.在.記.憶.中.找.你. (R. Lam)

The Good times shared will always be in my Memory - although some friendships had a 'short time span' but they are treasured!

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Bye Bye Melbourne for the Time Being . . .

Hopefully ........ I'll be back!

The End of Chapter

2010-08-30T00:29:00.002+10:00

Finally, the End of 'The' Chapter has unfolded!

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The whole Chapter isn't a happy one ...

There were More Loss than Gain!

Loss: Precious Ones + Time (youth) + Friendships + etc.......

Gain: A degree and ... Sad experiences ...

The fact that Mum could not be there to witness 'The Day' brought great pain to my heart! That was her wish before passing on!

Also, Could I not lose some Time and Friendships?

. . .

Thought I would only experience some of the incidents at a later stage of life!

But they were beyond Control!

And very unwillingly I have to face them! Not just 1 incident but several!

The study alone was burdensome enough... But some incidents that were Avoidable became Unavoidable!

. . .

The Next Chapter looks 'dark' and uncertain!

Just Met a Big hurdle 2 days ago!

But, what can be Bigger than My God?

Yet my heart still 'sighs'!

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What does my Future look Like? ?

A Timely Meaningful Dream.

2010-08-02T00:23:00.006+10:00

Dreamed a meaningful dream this morning.

The setting was in a small restaurant.

There was four waitresses and I was one of the sandwich-maker.

A customer ordered a sandwich with a 'special' sauce.

In the scene I remembered I had put the sauce in the sandwich and the next person was to grill the sandwich.

However, another waitress was "blaming" me that I did not put the 'special' sauce and in the dream the four waitresses were arguing about it and pointed finger on me and each other.

Throughout the fight the boss did not say anything and at the end we asked him to say a "fair" word...

And what the 'Boss' said really convicted my heart.

He said "Why do you guys wanna fight over small matters? There isn't a long time in your life to see each other, yet ......"

I was surprised that I dreamed this dream.

It is indeed true that life is short! And too short to fight over small little matters of who is right or wrong.

It is a timely dream as family will be coming over.

Past experiences tell me that there will be frustration when we go on a family trip.

*Sigh*

I should be anticipating their visitation but at the same time am stressed out and feeling that my Privacy will be intruded...

Think I am a "strange" introvert-melancholic person... One that needs ample time alone... And from past experiences too, the feeling will be strange when meet up with family again... But I shall pray for the Love and Grace of God to enjoy this family trip!

As Life is too short ...!

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- An Introvert's Feeling, "Strangeness" & Complexity is beyond her own Comprehension -

Reminiscing Childhood Toy...

2010-07-03T22:55:00.006+10:00

Lego was one of my childhood toys!

Yes, it's more of boys' toy, that was because I was influenced by cousin (brother). I thought it was a "challenging" toy to train my brain & patience!

Of course I did play Barbie doll, play doh, cooking, doctor & nurse, teddy bears (Forever Friend is my Cutest bear! Will share a story on this bear next time), swords and a mixture of other toys...

Played both girls' and boys' toys was because I had boy and girl childhood friends, as Mum was running a nursery (child care) when I was young...

And Here I am, back to "building" Lego.

And It is For A ReasoN! ! !

In the past few days, scenes of me playing Lego flashed back.

Those scenes brought back the warmth, the care & the love of Mum!

That was at the age of 8-9, where Mum bought Lego for me after exams to reward me as well as for my birthdays!

Those were the Happy Days!

I reminisced & missed very much!

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Thus, I have decided to re-visit my Childhood Toy!

I will build a Lego Family!

The physical family is incomplete until I meet Mum again in Heaven, hence, this Lego Family will be a Complete Family!

In this Family, Mum, Dad, Grandma, Grandma, Sis, Sis, Bro-in-Law, Nephew and ME will be the characters in the Lego Family! And of course God, Jesus and Holy Spirit will be with us too!

This will be a Family that is always together and always Joyful, and Happy!

There will Never Be sadness, sickness, sin or any other negative things! But only Blessings and Good Things will be there!

Mum will always be with us! Forever a Complete Home!

And Here begins My Project to a Family Lego!

. : My Lego Family : .

Time Machine !

2010-06-28T00:30:00.004+10:00

If I could invent a 'Time Machine', I would definitely turn back time to at least 11 yeas ago!

Wish I did Not come to Australia to study 11 years ago!

Wish I could live closely with Mami for 11 years more.

With the 11 years I gained knowledge but lost beloved Mami and the 11 years' time that I could have spent with her!

Worth the 11 years??

. . .

.:Time Machine:.

Perhaps with Time Machine I can fast forward to the Time of Reunion, to skip walking through sad moments !

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For now I will learn to treasure the moments left in the future with Close Ones until I ride on a Time Machine to Heaven!

But I will still continue 'dreaming' to go back or forward to Happy Times with Mami & whole family!

You're Not Forgotten!

2010-06-27T01:43:00.005+10:00

.: 25th June 2008 - 25th June 2010 :.

I still wish & hope that you will be healed, in my dream!

Last night I dreamed of carrying your physical body to a prayer event...

On the way to the event, I was full of hope & faith, I prayed for your healing...

And my heart was filled with Joy upon seeing you Resurrected!!!!!

That Joy was Real in my dream!

. . .

But It faded away when reality awakened me!

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Miss you very much, Mami!

Hope to reunite with you ReaL SooN!!!

The Awesomeness of Parents, Grandparents.

2010-06-22T01:36:00.009+10:00

Someone stated the following line on FB:

"The older I get the more I see how awesome my parents are!"

I can't agree more on this ! ! !

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Seeing nephew growing up each day, each year in a "fast rate", I really wished he would grow up every day knowing and appreciating his parents' love from young... before it is too late...!

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It is heart-wrenching when parents' love is not appreciated by the children... or they do not know how much their parents love and care for them... and I realised this at a "late" stage...

Seeing grandma getting old with "old-people sickness" really breaks my heart and at the same time struggling to cope with the stress caused by the "sickness"...

She is widowed at a young age and had to take care of four young children single-handedly. Consequently, fears constantly filled her heart since then and they are scarily manifested in her sleep, where she will scream ALOUD and turn very fearful in the middle of the night...

The stress, the fear, the hardship that she had gone through I would never know!

Grandma was very sad when her only brother passed away. And she told me how both of them ran away from China to Malaysia to survive from the "Japanese era". My heart ached upon hearing the story, and that was during my primary school years...

Now, because of her "old" sickness, many times I could not bear with the stress that she is giving... and I felt sad many times when I ran low on patience... The fear that she is showing now is the manifestation of fear she built in yesteryears... I have not gone through what she had gone through and how could I tell her not to be afraid unsympathetically?? *a slap to self*

I would never know exactly the hardship that grandmas and parents had gone through, hope I will still have time to appreciate grandma ... and dad...!

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Need to get out from the emotional and melancholic state soon, which happens every time after returning from home. But afterall, it is not a bad emotional state hey?

There is a Beginning ... & ... an Ending

2010-06-21T22:57:00.005+10:00

There is a beginning for everything... and sadly there is also an ending to many things, if not all!

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The Day of Birth and the Day of Death!

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A beginning to a friendship, with a "Hello" . . . and many times there is also a "Bye" to friendships!

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The First Day of School and The last!

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The Ending to A Sweet Dream with tears!

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The hopeful beginning to a Certain Dream/Desire that may end with "faded hope"!

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. . . There is a time for everything . . .

And When can there be no more sadness to endings or no ending to happy moments?!

. . . ? Soon ? . . .

. : : .

Isaiah 40: 28 - 31

28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, The Lord, The Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.

29 He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength.

30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall,

31 But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength;

They shall mount up with wings like eagles,

They shall run and not be weary,

They shall walk and not faint.

Siu Wan Kat!

2010-06-15T20:46:00.005+10:00

- Siu Kat -

The unfortunate thing is that buyer can't choose which one they want!

1st Selection by Sis!

2nd Selection by Me!

3rd Selection by Sis!

Got the same one!! :(

Shall sell it off ! ? !

*Lelong!*

Three D.

2010-06-14T18:58:00.004+10:00

1st three D. cinema in KK

. . . ! YeAy !. . .

Yes, am outdated :P

. . .

*Toast* for my Extended Holiday!

More Food June 2010

2010-06-10T21:08:00.001+10:00

Donashi! Big Apple Sushi-like Donuts!!

Salmon-like Donut!

*Cute*

A New Restaurant!

Quite a few unique drinks but . . .

Oh, what a flavour from Pringles! !

June 2010 KK

2010-06-08T22:00:00.002+10:00

My favourite food - Pan Min - "Wood" Noodle!

YUM!!

Yuk Guat Cha - Bak Kut Teh!

Also another of my favourites!

Sashimi, My favourite too!

This is a new Japanese restaurant in town! Thought it would be good since they have other branches in the "Eating Heaven - HK" but not as expected! Nonetheless, the Goose Liver sushi is commendable!

Another relatively new restaurant in town! More varieties than another "Old restaurant"!

Will go back for other dishes!

Sweet (plain) Croissant - Yummy!!

. . .

Shall take more pictures of yummy foods,

especially my beloved milk tea/cocoa with mini pearl and coconut cube

. . .

I shall extend my holiday? *Sigh*

New Toy Collection!

2010-06-08T20:36:00.004+10:00

*TaaaaRrraaa*

Oh, the tiny toys behind are not mine!

*WinK*

Still Going On...?

2010-06-07T00:25:00.004+10:00

Used to get bored after few days into a long holiday & kept looking for things to do.

But now I wish to have a long, long holiday ... to rest my mind!

After this holiday not too sure when will be the next one, one that I can enjoy without "burdens"!

... This short holiday is still one with "burdens" ...

? What, Where, When, How ?

The Aviator Fever!

2010-05-31T02:13:00.004+10:00

. . .

Which is M.i.N.e?!

. . .

Home sweAt Home !

2010-05-30T00:04:00.004+10:00

Am glad to be home!!

Ma Ma I am Home!!!

But for a short while only :((

Yes, it's humid and hot here, sweAt glands activated after hibernated for 3 months... *yikes*

. . .

Checked through the immigration officer at the airport, he didn't look friendly and I didn't quite smile then he said something that made me smile "sweetly" when he looked through my passport - "sekarang makin cantik" . . . HA HA HA!

But when sis saw me her word just had to take my sweet smile away! >.<

"Oh sis, you look older!!!" What a greeting to me!?

So does that mean as I age I look makin cantik?! HA HA ... I wish! But definitely I can really see myself aged more in the past 1 year ... hhmmmm ! !

. . .

Shall enjoy this break! Shall ask for God's Grace & Love to be with me and overflow from me to people around!

. . .

FreSsSh seafood here I come!!! Am Deprived of yummy and healthy foods for the past months especially fresh yummy fishes!!! But the deprival actually made me appreciate food (things & people) more!

. . .

Yeay, Happy Holiday!

A Roller Coaster Day!

2010-05-28T19:00:00.004+10:00

Started off the Day with excitement by doing a silly thing, Followed by Disappointment and Sadness But thank God He provided the way out for me!!!

. . .

The Silliness

That is none other than queuing up at 6 am in front of Apple to get the iPad! The store opened at 8 am and guess what? At 9 am the queue was SHORT! Arrrgghhh... I could just have gone there at 9 am and gotten more sleeps!!!

HA HA but I think it is a different experience!

The shop was covered with black curtains and at 8 am it was down and all the staffs were jumping with excitement to welcome us in!!

Indeed it was quite an excitement although it was a bit silly! He He, I think in life one just have to do some silly things from time to time to have some good laughters! :)

And for my beloved sister, just have to wake up early to get one, which I won't do it for myself!!

. . .

The first in line! Sat there from Thursday Night 10 pm!!!

Covered up!

The queue in front of me! ~ 50 ppl

Hid my face from the camera!!!

The long queue behind me!

7:50 am, Getting Ready!!!

8 am!!!

The Product on my sis' lap!

. . .

The Disappointment

Got my results back in the afternoon and the first look was really saddening & disappointing! Was really shattered by the results! I mean Really Shattered (but this time I kept proclaiming God's love, nothing can separate me from His love, which is different from the past Tough times that I had gone through!

Thank God that He arranged everything just perfectly in time!

Emailed supervisor who is on holiday in Europe about my results and just at the very right time, which is God's favour, she checked her email and she just happened to got back from another part of the Europe and couldn't fall asleep.

She called me all the way from Europe to go through with me the comments from the examiners and consoled me because I sounded very negative in the email, saying that I might not be award with the degree! And I was comforted! THANK GOD! Otherwise I'd have a miserable break!!!

She said this is part of learning and growing! Have to be strong and the comments made are very good guidance for my career. The examiner is an experienced editor!

Should see things positively although for a first timer it will definitely be too much to bear!

. . .

Thank God for the right timing!! He arranges everything very well when I trust in Him and ask of His Grace and Favour!

Ahhhh this also means that I would not be having a real and long break! Now I understand why things happened in a certain way for the past few weeks!

God is always ahead of me and ahead of time!

. . .

Really THANK GOD For HIS Love, Grace & Mercy!!!

Lost . . . . . AnD Found !

2010-05-24T15:31:00.006+10:00

Lost this ticket while taking out the phone in a shopping center!
It would cost $20.00 to get a new ticket!
I was dismayed when I couldn't find it!
I D.I.S.L.I.K.E. the feeling of LOSING some things or precious someone, although a ticket may not be that PreCious!
But I have EnOuGh of those despair feelings!
Almost gave up finding the ticket, because I was tired by the thought of losing it and need to pay for it and tired of searching for it in the big mall!
But I did not give up! I just Dislike that feeling of 'LOST'! And I want to "Fight" back for the Joy of Finding It again or at least NoT needing to pay for it! -_-'

. . .
Ha ha ha, out of desperation, I even tried to get a new ticket from the entrance ticket booth but couldn't because there was no vehicle & ticket was not issued & I kinda knew that it may not be the R.I.G.H.T. way, but I didn't quite care!

. . .
My last resort was to stir up my FaiTh & pray for God's grace, favour & mercy!
Kept looking & praying for it although at the back of my mind I knew that the chance of finding it is quite SLiM but at the same time Hoping, Praying & putting Faith in God!
. . .
Thank GOD that He kept it there on that spot for me to find it!
Thank God that I sought for His Grace & He granted me the Hope & Joy!

=)
. . .
p/s: $20 may not be of much value but knowing that God Cares for me Is Priceless!

Cuaca Melbie ...

2010-05-23T21:31:00.009+10:00

. . .

Cuaca di Melb dibagaikan 4 musim dalam 1 hari!

Sepertiny juga 'Cuaca - emosi' Seseorang ...

2305 saat yang lalu hatinya rasa mendung, sejuk, sepi tetapi 2305 saat kemudian hatinya rasa "lega" & cerah . . .

Cuaca - emosi kitaran ini akan berlaku lagi dan lagi . . .

Sehingga . . . . . . . . .

Happy Birthday Tong Tong, 2010!

2010-05-17T11:44:00.007+10:00

Happy Birthday to My Dear Tong Tong Sis!
Pray that God's Love is always filling your Cute lil' Heart! And His favours always be upon you, so that you can always bless me! HA HA!
. . .

~ 16th May 2008 was the last time Mama celebrated Tong Tong's Birthday! ~

Mum was still well in the month of May 2008 ... Couldn't believed how fast Mom's body deteriorated within the few days before 25th June.
. . .
Happy Birthday Tong Tongy, hope that I'll have many years more to celebrate with you!

What do I know Apart from Wasting $$?

2010-05-13T14:51:00.006+10:00

In the midst of job searching...
And I'm struck with fear, low self-confidence & "anxiety"...
Reading those job descriptions led me to doubt about my capability, expertise, skills and questioned myself what am I good at/for?
. . .
In the eyes' of some people I'm someone that often "waste" money on gadgets, food, traveling and etc, etc, and may not have given much thoughts about my future, my career, my life! !
But the struggles that I've gone through and going through in me they could not see . . . ! !
. . .
Come to think about it, it may be "true" that I only how to "waste" $ - and this may be why I'm struck with fear & low confidence during this job-searching time. I am not even convinced by myself that I can "Do it"! And with the several factors to consider in hunting for a job made "my head even bigger"!
. . .
But I shall not be deceived by those negative thoughts ...
I trust that My Beloved Daddy in Heaven shall guide me & provide for me!!

Obey your Parents And . . .

2010-05-09T20:46:00.004+10:00

And so I went to church to "celebrate" Mother's Day & for the Healing Service...

Anticipated the "scenario" would be so...!

Surely it was a bit awkward but what can I do?

One of the 10 commandments was shared, which was on "Honour your father & mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you" ...

Surely, it is a blessing to live long enough to see your next 2-3 generations prospering, but what is the true meaning to have a long life?

If one died early does that mean the person did not obey the parents?! Surely not!!

If one is given 100 years to live but did not enjoy life and fulfil his/her destiny as much as another person who only had 50 years of life but enjoyed & fulfilled his/her destiny within the "short time", would not the person who lived 50 years had a "longer life"? He/she had enjoyed and done more than the person who lived 100 years yet fulfilled lesser things ...

. . . I don't hope & wish to live too long but I hope to fulfil my destiny before I meet Jesus face to face, hopefully not too long to go!

Jesus had only walked on earth for 33 odd years but He fulfilled His "Mission" on earth!

(Ok, I think I'm being a bit sensitive here, surely having a long life is a blessing from God, shall not twist God's word but I do want to understand the real meaning of "life" or a "long life")

. . .

. : Happy Mama's Day : .

The Two Words . . .

2010-05-08T00:01:00.005+10:00

'Sorry & Thank You'

The two words that are often said . . .

And many times the word 'Sorry' is said too late . . . !

But still hoping that the "situations" can turn from "bad" to good . . .

. . .

Thank You, the expression of gratitude for the "things" offered or given, from the little things like giving way to others, opening doors, to friendship offered!

. . .

Surely many times in different situations these two words have "lost" the real meaning but it is still better Said than Not!

The Introvert Me...

2010-04-26T22:09:00.010+10:00

Definitions of Introverts from the internet:

"Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people. Introverts are more concerned with the inner world of the mind. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."

"Introverts make up about 60% of the gifted population but only about 25-40% of the general population."

. . .

"Introverts have an inward focus and aren't usually the life of the party. They have a strong sense of self that can make them feel highly self-conscious around other people – making walking into a crowded room a little nerve-wracking. Introverts process their emotions, thoughts, and observations internally. They can be social people, but reveal less about themselves than extroverts do. Introverts are more private, and less public. Introverts tend to get their energy from within, so being with people is draining. After a day filled with people or activities, introverts tend to feel exhausted and empty. To recharge their batteries introverts need to be alone reading, daydreaming, painting, or gardening – any solo activity fills them up again. This doesn't mean introverts have to live alone in a cave in the hills or on Walden Pond; they just need quiet time to come back to themselves. The energy source for introverts is from within."

. . . . . . .

I pretty much fit into the above definitions of introverts... I'm indeed exhausted after being around with people for 7 hrs and especially people who talk a lot & required my attention & response . . .

But I can't either be with people who are too quiet & couldn't strike a conversation, which can drain my energy too! GreaT . . . So what do I want?!?

. . .

Being an introvert really makes me think and evaluate myself too much and would often condemn myself.

And it can be quite challenging to "live fully in the Grace of God" as I tend to think about the actions, thoughts and deeds that I have done wrong and I'd start to feel "guilty" or "bad" . . .

But I should experience the Grace of God to live my life to the fullest . . .

Well...... then i should Not feel guilty of the 'right things that I have NOT done'! ! !

And obviously I can't... Guilt is filling my heart . . .

And so is "exhaustion" filling my body, heart & mind after being with a group of people for 7 hrs & hiked for 30 mins ++ . . .

. . . Guess it's time to recharge! Good Night My Cute & Beloved Ma Ma! . . .

. . . Hmm, I should pray for transformation in me so to live in God's Love & Grace before I "rest in peace". . .

FaithFulness...

2010-04-22T20:59:00.005+10:00

. : Faithfulness : .

. . .

"... be a husband of 1 wife ..."

. . .

Was chatting with a friend about boy-girl-relationship recently...

The friend thinks that guys should be Faithful to his girlfriend/wife, which I totally Agree!

And so should women to the boyfriend/husband!

He added "guys should also be responsible ... "

... Sounds like he would be a really good boyfriend/husband! ...

I've heard it many times that a relationship would get stale after few years into it . . . And is this a good reason to be unfaithful, particularly for the guys? ! ?

Why can't keep the sweet momentum going on forever?

I guess, both party should work out the relationship and keep it growing Healthily, Happily & Sweetly!

In the conversation with the friend, I made a point that guys are more prone to be unfaithful than women, but he disagreed!

But I still think it is true that girls are more faithful and girls' heart can easily be won with guys showering more care and love to the girls...

. . .

Guys should court and appreciate the girls more and more each day to win the girl's heart and the girls respond in sweetness to keep the relationship growing stronger and stronger!

. . .

. .

Apart from B - G relationship, one should be faithful to family members, friends and Especially to God!

Having said that, I should continue to build my faithfulness for God and also be faithful to Family and Friends!

. . .

. : FaithFulness : .

The Long Lost Canon-My Colour Effect!

2010-04-13T13:06:00.005+10:00

Feeling sleepy after lunch and decided to revisit the 'good old days' album'.
Definitely looking back at those photos gave me nostalgic vibe of the old days & the old Canon camera with 'My Colour Effect'!
Here are some snap shots taken by someone else (not me)

The Stand Out Coke!

Waiting for the truck loaded with tonnes of gas to climb up the slope hence there was ample time to take a pix of it!

My Favourite Festival! - CNY -!

American Brekky in K. K.

. . . Don't know the English name of this flower . . .

. . . CNY tidbits! . . .

Dad's pets!

The Hot Spot for CNY family portraits!

Miss those days of gambling - I mean just purely looking!

. . . Lion Dance waiting for nephew to give red packets! . . .
. . .
Back to work *Endless Yawnz*!

"Monotonous" Moments . . .

2010-03-29T00:40:00.004+11:00

. . .

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed after a short nap!

The eyes of my heart could only see "darkness" after awaken!

And the following 90 min unfortunate incidents just wouldn't want to leave me alone but crossed my path, one after another!

I do not know how to express my volcanic-frustration, no voice could come out from within to de-pressurize it! And I'm as though "muted"!

. . .

Wondering what had happened to me and my world during the short nap? Did the spiritual atmosphere around me had a huge turmoil and it just had to manifest in my physical world?

. . . After 7 hours still I could only see monotonous colour, where have the spectrum of colours gone to ? . . .

A Scientist's (me) Photography Skills!

2010-03-26T11:56:00.004+11:00

Sis, being an arty person, thinks my photography skill is very "scientified/scientific"!
The composition is very "square" = Not arty! Not Nice "laahhh"!
Hence, I need to de-scientified myself! >_<

I need to improve on the previous version of the City view taken from Docklands!
Wanted to take a view of the city as though it looks like the city is built on water!
And she thinks is "No Good, & uglier than before!"...
So I Failed the Mission!
Ohhhhh . . . Well . . . !

YesTerDay's Highlight 25032010

2010-03-26T11:41:00.003+11:00

Cleaning Up Day for the Lab!
Thrown things out from the walk-in cold room!
My 4-year project revolved around these things!

Used these tools to complete the project!

Indeed they are very important tools, without them couldn't complete an accurate research!

. . . Sunset view from office carpark lot . . .

. . . Had a nice sunset due to the haze . . .
But couldn't quite capture the real beauty of the sunset with my photography skills...! *BIG Sigh*

Ended the day with a visit to a friend's place that has nice view!
Wish I could stay in a place with nice view!

. . . Good Night Swanston Street !. . .

Task of the Day 24032010

2010-03-24T17:25:00.005+11:00

Have been writing a paper about these four graphs for the past 1 week!
They look just like simple graphs yet they are squeezing my brain cells out! Oh well, at least this task is not as stressful as the previous task - thesis writing -!
The packet of "powder" next to it has been my daily "boost" to keep me warm & going!

Shutter Speed Test 1

2010-03-22T17:34:00.002+11:00

Twilight @ Docklands with the view of Bolte Bridge

Night view of Bolte Bridge

Reflection of lights on water
. . . City view from Docklands . . .

The "Spirit" of Tram!
Swanston & Flinders Streets Junction

The "Speed of Light"

Doraemon's Back in the Car!

2010-03-22T17:22:00.005+11:00

My Doraemons 'r' back in the car after 1 year of prohibition from entering the tiny Mini car!
They are now my daily companion!

. . . together with the bigger Doraemon hidden in the 'cave' & with the 'Cute Little Ballerina on Board'!

I enjoy my music & driving more with this "loaned" subwoofer! ! !
=) =) =)

Mama, You're Back ... into my Dreams!

2010-03-19T08:51:00.003+11:00

Just now you said you'll see me through until I'm "big" and you won't be going 'away'...

My heart was Excited & filled with Joy on hearing those words & able to look into your eyes again!

But my Joy turned into deep Sorrow when the Dreams faded out and Reality, cruelly, creeps in . . . !

The Faded Flower . . .

2010-03-15T21:51:00.023+11:00

Isaiah 40: 7 The grass withers, the flower fades, Because the breath of the Lord blows upon it; Surely the people are grass

Isaiah 40:8 The grass withers, the flower fades, But the word of our God stands forever . . .

. . .

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and . . . more . . .

. . . the number of passing away of close family, relatives & friends that I've heard over the past 21 months . . .

Wonder if cousin's grandma met Mom & grandma last week when she passed away . . .

Still remember the childhood days when I always visited cousin's grandma during CNY . . . Her cheerfulness, her smile, her kindness are still in my memory! - R. I. P. -

. . .

Slowly, one by one, they are fading away . . .

. . .

Used to imagine how it would be if grandmas (older generation) passed away . . . it used to be a very sad & fearful thought!

But the passing away of Mom has already Eclipsed the Sadness of Other's death. . . !

Nevertheless, death still grieves my heart!

The most painful one had already taken place, which I've never expected it to happen at such an early stage of my life!

It is already written in My History . . .

I always wonder if God let it happen for 1 reason, is so that Mom would be able to welcome them to Heaven or to invite them to God if they haven't known God yet!

Perhaps...!

. . .

The 'Melancholic-Emo Bim' is back to the Usual 'Low' after Steppin' back in Melbourne!

Unethical, Careless, Ignorant Doctor(s) Or Fragility of Life

2010-03-04T13:05:00.004+11:00

Heard of 3 cases of cancer & 1 case of growth within the past 7 days!

More than I heard of someone catching a cold or flu!

. . .

For one case, it is so so so unfortunate that the patient passed away Not Due to the cancer but all due to the doctor's mistakes!

She is the Mom of a close family's friend! She was diagnosed with colon cancer just 1-2 months ago.

Initially, she was already diagnosed wrongly, where the doctors suspected the cancer had spread to the spinal bones but from second doctors' opinion the cancer did not spread to the bones at all!

What a silly mistake they had done!

Last week, she had an operation to remove the cancer in the colon!

Due to the Doctor's "experience", he "thought" he had done a good job in stitching back the wound and DID NOT put a pocket around the wound to catch the faeces!

Last night, the patient experienced an excrutiating pain due to leakage of the faeces!

She had an emergency operation to clean the faeces But she did not wake up from the operation! :( :( :(

Have heard & experienced enough of unethical doctors from that private hospital! And maybe many hospitals/places in the world are paying high salaries to unethical doctors too!

. . .

For another case, I heard it from a bank worker. Went to the bank yesterday just to deposit some cash and somehow we struck a conversation!

She is just 26 years old and is diagnosed with a stage 3 cancer!

I was . . . . . . . . I don't know what reaction to give anymore after hearing all these stories . . .

Not too sure why out of nowhere, but just in a bank I heard of this story! We had a long conversation, which I thought I would only need to spend 3 mins in the bank but turned out to be 30 mins or more!

She is a strong lady, which is really important for a cancer patient to be strong and positive!

They need to fight through the end with courage & let the "happy-hormones" to fight against the bad cells!

But it is always easier said than done!

. . .

An Expensive Lesson!

2010-02-23T02:52:00.004+11:00

Bought an expensive lesson to learn about trust & integrity in 'buying & selling'!

A lesson that taught me not to trust people so easily especially in matters that involve money!

. . .

What a painful lesson to my pocket and my Innocent Heart!!!

. . .

And this lesson is also putting me to a 'test' on how should I "solve" the PrObLeM!

. . . Continue the "Vicious Cycle" OR Break It?! . . .

. . .

CNY 2010 Day Four!

2010-02-19T03:42:00.010+11:00

. . . Day Four of CNY . . .

This is the Day where many Lion will "dance" at shop lots! This is to bring in "new & more luck/fortune" to the businesses!

. . .

Had a good watch of the Lions visiting shops in a shopping centre!

Some shop owners were quite cheeky! They purposely put the red packets at a higher place for the Lion Dancers to reach for the $$$!

Of course, for the sake of $$$ the Dancers would get them by all means!

Guess what were they looking at??

It was a very exciting show where two independent band of Lion Dancers met in front of 1 shop! Hence, the shop owner put the red packets on the ceiling for the Lions to compete to grab the $$$

. . . And they were jumping up hard to get them! . . .

Then there were some Lion Dancers that were "flirting" around, thinking that they were shielded inside the Lion head, hence they could be a little bit cheeky!

Had seen different colours of Lions in this 1 shopping centre within 1 hr!

As seen above, the pink and silver ones, and this the blue one and...

. . . An orange Lion and there were also red and yellow ones! . . .

Apart from Lions, there were also some stylo Drummers & Drums, the purple-coloured hair drummer with a purple drum!!

And a Young-Cute-Stylo Drummer!

. . . And lastly a PiNk Drum! . . .

Nephew had a good time of chasing after the Lions!

And he was wondering why the Unicorn is dancing differently!

CNY 2010 Day 3

2010-02-19T03:12:00.004+11:00

. . . Day Thr33! . . .

Didn't watch much Lion Dance today but only had a glance at one that visited the neighbourhood during dinner time!

A hardworking team of Lion Dance that visited the neighbourhood at 7pm!

Thus, had a chance to snap a photo of "Lion" to make my CNY Day 3 Complete!

. . .

Didn't have time to chase after Lion Dance on the 3rd Day was due to "open house" in my House!

Had lots of foods & one of the main dish was Salmon Sashimi! *YUM*!

. . .

After lunch, had a short time of Mahjong!

Then the Mini Gambling Den started!

! ! Black Jack ! !

. . .

. . . Money! Money! Money! . . .

Professional Gamblers! :)

. . .

Had a good day!

Always had a good time when people visiting the house & with some "games" played!

*Grin*

Doraemon Is Gone!!

2010-02-18T04:04:00.004+11:00

Saw these two Doraemon in a shop back in January! They are quite a big Coin-box Doraemon! Maybe more than 30 cm in height ...

I so wanted to get the coloured Doraemon but I did not...

And thereafter, I always thought about it & thinking that I'm gonna bring him home after collecting some Red-packets during Chinese New Year!

And today I went back to the shop but I could see it NO more!!! :`(

Felt so sad that someone else has brought him Home instead!! And it isn't ME!

I think I have learnt the same lesson over and over again!

That is . . . "Being Slow & Late!!!"

There are several things that I wanted to buy but didn't purchase when I first saw them. Then and then on the 2nd visit they are already Gone!!

Similarly, in treasuring people around me, I've been slow and late in several incidents and it is already Too Late when realised!

Haizzz! Guess that is human nature?! Where One won't treasure someone/something until they are Gone ... Then... Regret!

Shall Act fast & treasure people and things more before it is too late... again!

. . .

Oh, Doraemon! Where are thou??!

Chinese New Year 2010. . . Day 2

2010-02-16T20:42:00.006+11:00

Had a good day of watching Lion Dance on 2nd day of CNY!

. . .

Seen 3 bands of Lion Dance in a Day, with 1 after another!

This Lion was rather different than the other two, from the appearance to the rhythm of the drum beat! More like a 'Rock style Lion'

. . . Vegie in The Lion's Mouth! . . .

. . . The Most Stylo Drummer I've seen so far! I Like It! . . .

Poor Lion Dancers! Have to dance around the firecrackers!!!

Quite Long Hey the FireCrackers!!!

No Joke! Loud, Very Loud!

Next, guess what dancing creature was it?

. . . IS The GreeN DraGon! ! ! . . .

And for the Year of Tiger, definitely can't leave the Tiger out!

Ha Ha, Cute Tiger, with a heart-shaped Nose!!!

In a day, I have seen most of the Dancing creatures! One that has left out is the Hokkien Lion!

This is known as Unicorn! Not many countries have this creature! As this is known to be from the Hakka clan!

. . .

Second Day had enough of Lion Dance but had none for today, the 3rd Day!

So shall I go hunt for one Now to make my Day Happy & Complete!! :)

Happy Chinese New Year 2010. . . Day 1

2010-02-15T03:37:00.006+11:00

Happy Chinese New Year! ! !

. . .

I Love celebrating Chinese New Year very much!

I Love waking up to the Sound of Lion Dance on the First Day of Chinese New Year!

The moment my eyes are opened on the First Day of the Chinese New Year I can feel the joy dancing in my Heart!

. . .

Days before the Chinese New Year it is always a happy and exciting time to shop for crackers & tidbits, new clothes and many things for the house decoration!

Mom would buy various types of snacks and foods for the Reunion Dinner and house visitation!

And It will be a 15-day feasting celebration, to be exact, it is actually longer than 15 days as we start eating days before the 1st Day of Chinese New Year!

. . .

I Love the The Time of Preparation, The Sound of Lion Dance and Fireworks, The Sound of Mahjong, The Red Packets received & Most Important the Laughters of People during House Visitations. All these bring Joy & Excitement to my Heart!

. . .

However, throughout the years I learnt that all these Joy & Excitement have to come to an end on the 15th Day of Chinese New Year. Thus, I always feel sad on this day because I have to wait for another year to "feel" the Excitement & Joy again!

. . .

After Mom is gone, the New Year Shopping Mission is left to Dad & Us to accomplish!

And the joy that once filled my heart during Chinese New Year Celebration is No Longer Complete . . . without Mom!

. . .

. . . Nevertheless, Chinese New Year Celebration still brings some Joy to my Little Heart although it is Not Complete Like Before! . . .

. . .

Happy Chinese New Year!

Some Reflection . . .

2010-01-21T02:41:00.012+11:00

Have been reflecting on the "Stages of Life", or to be precise, my heart, unintentionally, has been "analysing" the different stages of life. Here are some results drawn:

From foetus to baby, toddler, childhood, adolescent and even to young adulthood, individuals at these stages are mainly ASKING & SEEKING (RECEIVING STAGE) - be it for "Invisible (Love, Care, Attention) or Visible (toys, clothes, money) things"! Although at times individuals at these stages can Give (both the Invisible & Visible "things") but they are more incline to Receive! And Parents are always more than willing to give their child the best of the best! BUT . . . would the child knows how to appreciate their parents' Love & Sacrifice?! Surely, they do know that they are loved and at times able to reciprocate but they May Not be that Determined or Inclined to Reciprocate the Love & Care!
At the stage of young adulthood to 30-40s, individuals would be working hard to earn the most as well as to enjoy life with friends and busy settling down with their own new family and . . . what about their parents? This, too, is a Receiving Stage!
Only when "tragedy" happens or when the individuals hit the "Older Stages of Life" or when they are in parenthood, they would know how to Appreciate & LOVE their parents & close ones, Learn to Give more than to Receive or Make wiser decisions! But sometimes, it is already TOO LATE . . . !

. . . # 1 . . .

Had a chat with some family's friend, the husband had an accident few nights ago. The moment the car slammed onto his side of car, he thought he was gonna "be finished"! Thank God that he did not have life-threatening injuries but is very much traumatised! [Nowadays, drivers are very irresponsible and unethical, they drink and drive or they speed all the way thinking that they are a professional drivers & accident-proof!]. The husband was driving carefully but it was the alcohol-consumed driver that sped and caused the accident! Thus, a careful driver is no longer safe on the road that shares with unethical & irresponsible drivers! From this incident, he knew that life is Really Fragile & he said to his family & us "to enjoy life, appreciate others and do what you can while you can as we will never know what would happen tomorrow!". This, I understood, too, but need constant self-reminders!

. . . # 2 . . .

Children (including myself) always think that parents are against what they do when parents disapprove them from doing certain things! But little do the children know what their parents do are for their good! . . . Now, only can I truly understand this! But it is Too Late! . . . For instant, a friend's teenage child insist to go out on weekday's night for cell group during school semester. And he was not home by 10:20 pm! But what could the parents do as children of these days are more "free" (or mind me of my strong word "more rebellious & pampered"). Little do the child know how worried are his parents, as his dad just had an accident and surely clouds of negative thoughts would come to his mind!

. . .

It is only when negative incidents had happened then would one realised & understand more about certain things that one would think otherwise before the incidents! And many times, it is already Too Late!

. . .

Only if children, at a young age, can understand, appreciate & reciprocate their parents' love before it is Too Late!

. . .

Only if . . . Then this world would have less sorrows and more Love & Joy in people's life!

Unconditional LoVe!?

2010-01-09T01:54:00.009+11:00

Much have been preached about 'Unconditional Love'!

But what is the true meaning of Unconditional Love?

Almost everyone can recite the definition of Unconditional Love!

But can everyone exercise Unconditional Love towards others?

. . .

Does Unconditional Love mean pampering an Unreasonable person?

No discipline should be involved?

And any form of frustration and anger should be suppressed?

. . .

My Unconditional Love has been tested closely since 5 years ago and up to this moment!

Frustration and guilt have been following closely thereafter!

The high and low emotions of guilt, frustration and love have drove me up the wall!

Much tears have been shed and I bet God's heart has been broken over and over again by my foolish act!

But the "results" of these tests have made me understood a little more about the meaning of Unconditional Love and more and more to be discovered! And I know it won't be an easy learning curve but a tough one! !

. . .

I am still learning to Love, and not letting my emotions go out of control, with God's love!

. . .

I am very sorry for what I have done and I have to learn from the mistakes and . . . be a better person!

Mr. R. Lam concert @ Genting

2009-12-28T22:23:00.008+11:00

Raymond Lam's Let's Party 19th Dec 2009 Concert @ Genting, Malaysia

. . . Poster at the entrance . . .

. . .

. . . His Signature Pose! . . .

Concert Guest . . . Joel Chan!

Concert Guest . . . Vincy!

. . .

. . . Concert Ending . . . with Joel Chan & Wong Cho Lam . . .

. . . All concert guests! . . .

. . .

Had a good time at the concert! Went all the way to Genting from K.K., passing the sea and the mountains! Harrrrr... yet did not get to see him "up-close" face to face!! What a waste! Nevertheless, it was a good experience! My first time to a Hong Kong singer solo concert!

*Yeay*

Hong Kong Dec 2009

2009-12-28T21:40:00.004+11:00

First time to a Disneyland . . . !!!

Was informed that the Hong Kong Disneyland is the smallest among all the Disney in the World. . .

In deed it is a pretty small one. Perhaps, it gave me a foretaste of the bigger Disney in LA and Japan! Heard that those big Disney need more than 1 day to finish touring the whole compound! Aaahhh. . . ! !

. . .

In the Disney Train to the Disneyland! As expected, the train is decorated with their signature cartoons! The windows & hand "holder" of the train are the shape of the Mickey Mouse head *CuTe*

. . .

. . . Some decorations . . .

. . . Cute Piggy Bun . . .

No outside food and drinks are allowed in the Disneyland!

Hence, taking advantage of this regulation, the foods and beverages sold there are Not Cheap!

. . .

Good Night Disneyland!

. . .

MTR of North Point

. . . Steep escalator in Fortress Hill MTR . . .

. . . Hunting for some cheap electronic gadgets at this "suburb" but found none! . . .

. . . Last destination before flying off . . .

"Too Wise . . . Or ? "

2009-12-28T02:42:00.011+11:00

A little quiet observation:

Met some people that constantly criticise about things and people around them and too quick in speaking forth unpleasant words! - Those words are hurting my ears!
Some people think they know a lot and constantly "offer" destructive criticism! - Perhaps, they think they have enough of experiences, hence they have the "wisdom" to "comment"!
They are so focused on the negative things and often overlook on the little positive ones!
They only see from one angle & direction & judged based on that view alone!
Yet they only complain and criticise behind the "Subjects" . . . But have no guts to "comment" in front of the "Subjects"!

. . .

There are also other people who "like" to argue to show that they are "knowledgeable" and they always think that their points & arguments are RIGHT!
People can be so loose with their words & tongue and blurt out words that are negative, unnecessary & without "Substance"!...

. . .

Lesson learnt: Shall always remind myself to remain humble & think before speaking forth!

Out of Sight, Out of Mind ... & Out of Heart!?

2009-12-16T03:54:00.008+11:00

"Out of Sight, Out of Mind" . . .

It is a true and real statement!

And eventually it will be . . . "Out of Heart" . . . ? !

. . .

Does the absence of the Ring indicate that she is already out of his heart?

. . .

. . .

My Favourite Cat!

2009-12-14T04:04:00.003+11:00

This is my favourite childhood cartoon character, Doraemon a.k.a. Ding Dong!

He grew up with me during my childhood time!

. . .

It is a cute, adorable, chubby, cheeky robot cat!

It has a "Power-Pocket", a pocket that contains every magical thingy!

. . .

I remember watching it in amazement whenever he reaches in to his "Power Pocket" to take some futuristic, high-tech gadgets out to help Nobita to solve his problems and troubles!

. . .

He doesn't have a pair of ear because they were eaten by mice!

Hence, he, a cat, is afraid of mice! ! !

He He He . . . He he he he he he . . . What a cute joke! :P

. . .

I wonder if I can have a real-time Doraemon when I'm back in heaven!

That would be really great! So I can go back to the past as well as the future!

. . .

. .

For the mean time on earth, I wish to own one or two of the Doraemon watches, Doratch!

They are limited edition watches!

. . .

But I have no idea where to purchase them! ! -_-"

. . .

Shall continue hunting for them, I mean the Genuine Ones! =)

. . .

http://www.runat.co.jp/doratch/history.html

. . .

2010 Is Here . . . Real Soon!

2009-12-13T03:00:00.004+11:00

The sight of Christmas trees and decorations tells that another year is passing away and a new year is dawning

. . .

1.4 years ago I would feel rather "sad" when another year is gone . . .

But now, I don't quite feel sad but rather "relieve" and "happy" yet somewhat "directionless"!

. . .

1: "Happy" - because it means that my time on earth is getting shorter and shorter . . .

But it also means that I have shorter time to do what I should do on earth!

2: "Directionless" - because I still do not know where (place) should I start my career!

. . .

. .

Am I ready for 2010? ?

. . . *shrug* . . .

Nevertheless . . . I wanna wish everyone a . . .

. : Blessed and Merry Christmas! : .

Mami, I Am Home!

2009-11-30T12:20:00.011+11:00

But you are not home, anymore! =(

. . .

I have finished It!

But you are not here to celebrate with me! =(

. . .

Home is never complete without you!

. . .

But I can feel that you are always looking down from heaven to cheer us on!!

Till we meet again, I will always miss you!

. . .

At Last! But... An Unbalanced Equation

2009-11-27T00:34:00.007+11:00

At LONG Last!

I have finished one of the big races in life!

. . .

It was a race that started off badly and things didn't get any better thereafter but thank God it has ended fairly well!

. . .

My heart is "toughen" up with all the corrections from supervisors!

I was utterly discouraged when first started writing up!

Felt really, really bad to supervisors for the poor writing!

They spent hours and hours to change them...

And I greatly appreciate their endurance, patience and time!

. . .

As things progressed, I got the hang of it!

And I was very encouraged to see positive feedbacks, to know that I was on the right track!

I thought only kindergarten kids will be happy to see "stars" given for their work!

But at this level of education, seeing "stars" can actually make me very happy & indeed I yearn to see "stars" for the work!!

. . .

And At Last! I got the final product!!!

. . .

This entry is titled ". . . An unbalanced equation" because. . .

Gained 1 Thesis = Lost 1 Mom, Lost 1 Grandma, Lost 4 youthful years, Lost . . . several more things!

Isn't it an unbalanced equation?!

However, still have to be grateful & thankful for the blessings & "blessings in disguised" given to me!

Thank God for the opportunity to study!!

Thank God for His wisdom, provision & protection!!

And Thank God!

. . .

Some Laughter . . .

2009-11-16T22:42:00.016+11:00

We walked passed a shop after some drinks

. . .

And Angela stopped by to read the poster above

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Angela: Reading reading reading...

Me: *wonder what was Angela reading* OoOo, I know how to read that! It says "A chance to win a free ticket to Hong Kong" *read out loud*

Pei Lin: Ya, I also know how to read . . .

Kelvin: Oh, something something something Hong Kong!

Awi: Haaaaaa, hahahahahaha I also know how to read!!!

Angela: *VERYYYY SUPRISED that Awi and me can read chinese* You two can read??????

Me & Awi: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA, of course we can read!!!!!

Me: Hahahaha, Neh, here!!!

Awi: Hahahahahahahaha, you (Angela) really looked VERY surprise that we can read!!!!

Angela: Hahahahaha yes, because I haven't finished reading and she (me) has finished reading the whole sentence!!!

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

. . . It was a simple funny encounter!!! . . .

. . . Hahaha, both posters were just right next to each other, yet Angela didn't notice the english version!!! . . . :P

. . .

. . . Good to have some simple laughter in life to stay Young and Happy! . . .

And of course need some friends to laugh together!

=) =) =)

*Happy things can happen anytime, anywhere!!*

It is Getting Nearer!

2009-11-15T23:32:00.005+11:00

The time to submit the thesis is getting nearer and nearer and nearer...!

In two weeks time I'll be home...!

This also means I have to make the decision for the next phase of life VERY soon!

. . .

The thought of leaving Melbourne actually saddens me...!

For the friendships that I have built...

And for this place that I have stayed in for the past 5 or more years!

. . .

Have encountered many many happy and sad moments here in Melbourne!

I have met different kinds of people!

I have met very very good friends here in Melbourne that changed the perspective of my life!

And I have also met a few sad encounters . . . !

Ah, things - good and not so good - come in a package, hey?!?

. . .

I have developed a few deep friendships but many of them have moved on! !

It wasn't easy when we're parting

. . .

. . . Till then I shall enjoy my stay here in Melbourne :) . . .

Can't wait to be free from studies after so many yearssss!

What is the first thing I should do after submitted the thesis ? ?

. . . Anticipating for that day! =) . . .

Nostalgia . . .

2009-11-15T01:08:00.004+11:00

Sometimes simple things are more enjoyable and memorable...!

Sometimes "ad-hoc" and simple plans are more fun and memorable...!

Sometimes being "oblivious" is a bliss...!

. . . Sometimes . . .

. . .

Are these signs of "ageing"!?

Or I'm behaving like a "complicated" human?

. . .

Bottom line: I'm not as "energetic" and "simple" as last time to "re-live" those "happy" moments!

. . . Hence, I can only Reminisce! . . .

Life Lessons...

2009-11-14T14:39:00.013+11:00

Read a blog written by a Spirit-filled Pastor...

One of his statements really captured my heart...

"Hunger for God is CAUGHT not Taught"... Ps. P. Tan

. . .

Indeed, it is very true!

Apart from the Hunger for God, I think many other "characters" in me were "caught" from other people and "birth" forth within me.

Both Good and the Not so good characters!

And there is a saying that goes like this "it is always easier to learn the Not So Good things from people than learning the good things"... and this statement is very True!

. . .

I pray that God will make me more sensitive to catch His Love and Characters from people around me!

. . .

Last night, I was, again, reminded to be thankful for the small little blessings or even blessings in disguise that God has given unto me...

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

. . . *Life Lesson No. 0202* . . .

Dad: Ohhhh, the lady said it was a Grade-A chicken, but it doesnt taste like one! Hmmm...

Sis 2: Haaaa, dad, you're bluffed by people!!!

Mum: He he he, really not the Grade-A chicken???

Me: *thinking* what's the difference between this so called Grade-A chicken and the Real Grade-A chicken???? It taste Yummy too!!!

Sis 2: Oh, dad, how come you couldn't tell the difference??? You are so experienced in buying groceries!! Aiyah... !

Mum: Gigglessss... hehehe . . .

Sis 2: Bla bla, don't buy from the lady anymore...!!!

After a while of complaining then...

Finally, dad says "Oh well, I just bought from the lady because no one bought from her and she looked a bit "pathetic", so I just bought it from her..."

Then all of us kept quiet!

And I Caught Dad's Kind Spirit & Love!!!

Dad didn't want to say it out but after much complains from us he said out the purpose of buying the chicken from the lady and I think he knew that the chicken was not a Grade-A chicken...

Yet because of his kindness, he bought from the lady to make her day happy and for her to be able to go home earlier!

. . .

If the little things that you do can make someone's day happy, and only cost you a little bit of money (or maybe more), why not do it?

Some people may not agree. . .!

. . . . . .

I hope I can always be sensitive enough to CATCH Godly characters!

However, these things can be taught but one needs to be able to Catch them, otherwise they will just be another "theoretical moral" lesson that stays in the mind. . .

. . . . . .

I guess after catching it, practising it in daily life is also another Important step...!

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Recently, I had a dream.

I was dreaming that I was sitting in a car driven by a friend.

I was looking around for a newsagent, but not just any newsagent!

In my heart, I was looking for a newsagent that was operated by an elderly couple (gung gung - po po) and the newsagent was not those "good looking" newsagent but one old looking newsagent.

Then my friend asked "why don't just go to any newsagents, since we have been driving around?"

Then in my heart I said "Hmmm, me buying things from the gung gung and po po can make their day happy and add to their income. . ."

. . .

I hope not only in the dream but also in my daily life I can show kindness and love to others, just as my Dad has done it...

. . .

*Shall blog the life lessons learnt to remember them and read back whenever I'm running low on "kindness" & other Godly characters*

31 More Days . . .

2009-10-28T23:44:00.003+11:00

The Day to submit my thesis is coming real soon! !

. . .

This is the Day that I have awaited for a long long long while!

I'm at the stage of final corrections and waiting for supervisor to be back from holidays, which will be in 3 weeks time! ! !

Oh No! ! ! Hopefully I can submit it in time before I ride on a jet plane to go home!

. . .

In 31 days time, around this hour, I'll be at Melbourne Airport waiting happily to board the Singapore airline, after the past few journeys with Air Asia that gave me body aches!!

Can't complain much because Air Asia is way cheaper than other airlines!

. . .

The end of thesis also means it is the time to Part with some colleagues that I have built close friendships with!

*SiGh*

The thought of Not able to see them again is saddening!

When and where will we meet again? ? I Do Not Know! !

. . .

I always wonder why does Life have to be so "cruel"?!

Why do we have to go through Sadness!?

. . .

Guess it's just part of growing up and old!

. . .

*s i g h*

Unknown Calls...

2009-10-28T23:26:00.004+11:00

In the early morning, 4 am, of 25th June 2008, which was the day Mom passed away and the following 2 nights after her passing away I received unknown calls on my mobile.

I find it a rather strange event!

I wonder if God was calling me to prepare me. . .

They happened at a rather strange time!

After 2 months, again, I got an unknown call at 5 am...

. . .

I really wonder who called me at those early hours! !

Was it something "strange" and significant or I was actually pranked!?!?!

. . .

Maybe Mom or God was sending messages to me from the "spiritual realm"!

. . .

Today I got unknown calls again but I don't find it strange because they occurred during working hours. But I wasn't available to pick them up. And I wonder who called me! Not my family, and so who? Did I owe anyone money?!?!? Maybe . . . Hence they are chasing me for the $$$!

Another 365 Days have Gone!

2009-10-24T12:43:00.005+11:00

Watched the 6th Hour of Driven by Eternity last night!

The content is almost in line with other Authors who have visited and written about Heaven.

That brought me some "relief" - knowing that Mom and Grandma are reunited and enjoying (really hope so) the Presence of God!

. . .

I wonder how Mom felt when she met up with Grandma after 4 months she was back in Heaven!

. . .

Today, 24th October 2009 marks the One year Return of Grandma to Heaven!

. . .

I have been imagining how It would be on The Day when I meet up with Mom again!!

. . .

I Can't Wait for that Day to Come! !

. . .

Lost . . . But Not Found!

2009-10-23T11:28:00.008+11:00

It's only When . . .

One has lost someone or something that One has taken for granted or did not treasure as much and as often as One should . . .

Only then . . . and then . . . thou realised their vital importance!

. . .

There is No U-turn for Many Situations in Life!

. . .

By then Only Memories can serve . . .

It's better than "Nil" . . . But One has already lost the "Point"!

. . .

I Shall treasure the Moments before it's too late, again! . . .

. . .

And Technology can help in part to Capture the Moments . . .

Shall keep a "photo - logue" whenever possible!

When Dreams are The Only Place I want to Be In!

2009-10-03T15:08:00.019+10:00

Since Mom's passing away, dream is the only place where I can see and talk to her!

. . .

For the first 12 months, I had Reccuring dreams about me praying Desperately for her to be healed!

Almost on alternate days, if not every night!

. . .

Those dreams were very very, very REAL & Vivid!!!

I can Intensely feel the Desperation and Sadness in the dreams!

Even after waking up those emotions were still very strong & depressing! !

. . .

In some dreams I was SO Happy & Overjoyed that Mom was healed!

But I was Utterly Disappointed when I knew it was . . . Just A Dream!

There were times that I wept after waking up from those dreams!

In one dream, I kept asking Mom to "Must Remember ME! Must remember Me!!! . . . I kept repeating it! And she said she'll remember my birthday! . . . Then I woke up! at 4 a.m.

. . .

After the 12 months, slowly my dreams about Mom were less saddening but more conversational & happy!

Those latter dreams had the scene of old days, at the old house & of younger age!

Some dreams were about her asking me to be a good girl!!

. . .

My Need for Mom's care & love is "manifested" & "fulfilled" in my dreams.

My heart is very much longing for Mom!

. . .

Now dreams are the only Place where I can See, Converse & feel Her "Presence, Care & Love!!

. . .

For now any emotions that are built up in me will be released in my dreams, as there is no other place to . . .

Hope to pen down the dreams about Mom, lest my memory is fading away!

And Hope to have more happy dreams about Mom!!!

. . .

Dream - My only way & place to feel Mom's Presence & Love again!

. . .

Chatting in the Student Rooms!

2009-10-01T17:42:00.005+10:00

I have been struggling for many months with students constantly talking on the phone and chit chat with other students.

The time they spend on talking are longer than them working in the lab...! ! !

When I first started working here I never had those spare time to chit chat !

I wonder why these new batches of students are so FREE!!!!!!???????

. . .

And finally, I got the gut to tell them off this week!

And I felt guilty after that...

I don't like telling people off!!!

But it has come to a point where I can't take it anymore because I am writing my final chapters & I'm distracted e.v.e.r.y.d.a.y. !

Imagine someone concentrating, trying to write then got distracted, almost all the time!

The reason I felt guilty is because they said "sorry"...

They said they can understand about it...

If they can understand then why did they do it at the first place???

. . .

Oh, back from *gossipping*

Another student is also having the same problem!

She too told someone off in a friendly manner but was ignored!

*headache*

Those short term students from other countries are only here for fun!

So their conversations are just fun & fun and we, the long term students have to suffer with their chit chats!

. . .

OHHHHH!!! HELP!!!!!!!!! :( :( :(

. . .

Happy Birthday!

2009-09-30T14:02:00.009+10:00

Happy Birthday Mummy!

You would be 54 years old today!

I wonder if God, Jesus and Angels above are celebrating with you now?! =)

. . .

*Let me dedicate a song to you* =)

. . .

Happy Birthday Ma Ma

Happy Birthday Ma Ma Ma Ma,

Happy Birthday Maaa Maaaaaaaaaaa!

. . .

Hope you are enjoying yourself up there!

. . .

And hope you did look down just now when I was presenting my work!

You must be wondering why I didn't answer their Questions accurately, it's because I was nervous and I lost my thoughts!

HA HA!

Nevertheless, I still thank God very much for His blessings & peace & guidance & wisdom!

. . .

Happy Birthday, Mama! =)

. . .

Miss you very very very much!!!!!!!!!

=`(

Me Without a Car ?!

2009-09-09T22:57:00.005+10:00

My stress level has risen exponentially after tonight's incident!

My Cute Car has decided to take a rest after all the long hour of work!

One of his feet is injured and need a major fixing!

*S i G h h h h h h h*

. . .

Nevertheless, I still thank God for His thoughtfulness!

Thank God that the car broke down near my house!

If it was broken down on the freeway I'd be walking home tonight because it so happened that my mobile phone ran out of credit! And I wouldn't have a way to S.O.S.!!!

. . .

I Can't imagine the worst case scenario! !

. . .

And this confirms that God wouldn't allow me to go through situations that are beyond my strength!

. . .

A. M. E. N.!

. . .

Oh no! Can't imagine to be car-less for the next few days or week!

. . .

Oh, Doraemon, where are you? I need you even more! >.<

Adrenalin Gush !

2009-09-08T12:22:00.017+10:00

. . . Adrenalin is starting to gush through my body from now on . . .

. . . and maybe until the end of October 2009! . . .
because . . . I'm on my last lap of Marathon!!!
. . .
Oh . . . no! Suddenly panic is attacking!!!
. . .
The 2nd Doraemon picture SO describes my feelings now!

. . .

And if Mom was here She would definitely say "Don't worry, will ask Holy Spirit to guide you"!

Am missing and lacking those - assurance & comforts - from Mom!

. . .

Oh, Doraemon, where are you and your pocket, drawer & gadgets???

.x.o.x.ox.o.

A Stress-Release Spot. . .

2009-09-04T17:03:00.005+10:00

This place is "pretty near" to my work place

And it is none other than the Werribee South beach!!!

. . .

(On a Thursday lunch time a man fishing by the shore?? I wonder if there was any fish or water creature attracted to the bait!)

. . .

Came here twice and on both occassions I was stressed & #$%#KO . . .

. . .

The sight of Wide Sea . . .

And Calm - Clear water . . .
. . .

Can Ease My Mood-iness
. . .

But the sight of it can also be scary . . .

Scared of Sharks!!! *LOL*

Since Australia are famous for shark-attacks!
But no, haven't sighted any fins so far!

. . .
Not even the sight of Dolphins

. . .

Walking on the jetty with my McDonald's shoes on!. . .

THEN I Walk ON Water to get back to work!!! :)

The Walk of Faith!

Can It be My Next Car ? !

2009-09-04T16:51:00.006+10:00

One of my wish-list itemsss!

*I Wish!* I Wish!*

Guess what is it?

A Mini Cooper S!!!

Color: Red, Blue, Yellow or White

With Stripes!!! or at least some decals!!!

This is it! ! !

Suddenly 2 Minis made their habitat on the company car parking lots recently!
oOo, and maybe can form a Mini Fan Club!

. . .

The Second Slap!

2009-09-01T14:27:00.011+10:00

On the next day, I got another "grey" Slap!

I was walking in the city, at night, to breathe in some city air and to enjoy the night lights along Yarra River!

Again, as I was walking I put on my alert radar due to the news of high rate of fights, racism, and brawls in the city.

And it is common in the city that people will approach you and ask for some small change to "buy-tickets-to-get-a-ride-home"

As I walked along Southbank, at relatively fast pace there came a girl and said "Excuse me, I wonder......."

From my experience and instinct I walked off quickly!

And after walking off, I was reasoning within me, "What if she was asking for directions???" Or "even if she was asking for some small change I should have given her as the following verse came to my mind"

. . .

Matthew 10:42 And if anyone gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones because he is my disciple, I tell you the truth, he will certainly not lose his reward."

. . .

Then I walked back in hope to catch the girl again and see what she was asking for...

After a short walk, I saw her again, from a far, and she was approaching a man and the man took a note (at least $5) out from his wallet and gave it to her...

Indeed she was "in need" of money...

Hmm, guess I should have stopped, listened to her and gave her "a cup of cold water" - small change - for whatever reasons she wanted the money for, as long as I have done my part. Afterall she looks decent . . .

*2 lessons on 2 consecutive days*

*Oh, what's next?*

Maybe it has been a long time since I was last *Polished*

. x . o . x . o. x. o.

Two Slaps . . . on My Left & Right Cheeks!

2009-09-01T13:33:00.011+10:00

*Huummmm*

1st Slap!

On Sunday, I got into my car and locked the door without delay.

After a few seconds suddenly a loud bang knocked on my left door!

And I was SHOCKED by it! ! !

I thought someone wanted to "intrude" into my car, rob me or ask for some fights!

This thought that came as a result of constant news about fights, brawls & stabbing cases that are steeply escalating in the Melbourne city in recent months!

But actually the loud bang was from an Asian girl falling off from her bike.

I was still in shock in the car while she picked up her bike.

After few seconds I went down to see my "beloved car"!

Then from shock came "frustration" or rather anger!

I was thinking why would someone ride a bike on a narrow walking path that should not be riding a bike!!!

She fell off when she was trying to avoid the oncoming people walking on the narrow path , which led to her fall - on my car & not on the road -

Out from my car, the first thing I did was to inspect my car, with the shock, blurness & frustration in me!

Then a "Voice" in me told me to ask about her condition First!!"

"Aarrgghhh, and very reluctantly I asked if she is alright"

Yet inside me I was still wondering why would she ride a bike on a narrow path, with people coming towards, then veered off and scratched my CuTe Car!!!

She told me she had just borrowed a bike from her friend and was trying it out!

Haaa... after few seconds my shock & frustration cooled off . . .

Then came G. U. I. L. T.!

*Taaarrraaa*

And Guilt slapped me on my face!

>.<

I should have been more concern of her safety & conditions rather than my car!

I should not put material things - a car - above a human's safety!

Oh, great!!! What a lesson. . . This is because my Car is my Very Precious Possession! =(

*Oh, Yes, deeply Repented*

A Good source of Depressant >.<

2009-08-26T17:34:00.010+10:00

Once upon a time . . .

*he he, story telling time, please ready some tissues*

. . . . .

What is that???

Mocha!

Lindt Cafe

. . .

Rarely drink coffee & had this glass of Mocha on a happy Sunday!

A friend said that Mocha was supposed to have more chocolate & less of coffee! So I decided to have a try!

After drinking 3 quarter of it my heart started to change (in quite a rapid rate) from joyful =) to tearful =~(

The depressant effect was "EXtreMeLy" strong for me!

. . .

Ha Ha! Guess what happened after that?!?!?!

-_-"

P/S: a reference for effects of caffeine http://stresshelp.tripod.com/id7.html

Great! . . . Courage!

2009-08-24T13:14:00.006+10:00

W.o.W!

"Accidentally" came across this singer, Kelvin Tan (Chen) Wei Lian. One of his songs is nice! And the Google tells me that he is actually visually impaired but he can sing well!!

. . .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13A76DDZBAo

. . . Try Youtube other songs sung by him . . .

. . .

Although he can't see but he is talented.

. . .

God is indeed F. a. i. r. !

. . .

His Courage to face the World has 'Encouraged' me!

. . .

* A good lesson!*

P/S:Sometimes being bored and just "lepak" wandering" aimlessly around for - nice songs or etc - can be beneficial! But . . . Not ALL the Time :P

H. E. A. L. I. N. G. 2.

2009-08-24T12:50:00.004+10:00

Is There Hope in The Midst of Hopelessness?

Y. E. S.!

With GOD Everything is POSSIBLE!!!

The Aunty was prayed over by a godly man of God (a pastor) & the whole church!

She has regained strength since then!

I'm VeRy Excited to hear the news!!!

. . .

THANK GOD for HIS LOVE!!!

Shall continue to pray for her recovery!

H. E. A. L. I. N. G.

2009-08-13T13:18:00.012+10:00

I got to know a few aunties last year who constantly encouraged Mom to be Strong and Hopeful

. . .

There is an Aunty that had same cancer as Mom. She is a strong woman in spite of what she had gone through . . .

She went through the treatments very courageously . . .

But . . . . . . I just got a news that she is in her final stage . . .

. . . . . . . sigh . . . . . . .

I can verily understand how the daughters & family are feeling now!

. . . *Flash back* . . .

. . .

And I wonder what can I do at these moments?

. . . Prayers ? YES! . . . But . . . . . . . . . .

I "lost" it

Why life just have to go through sadness, and even sad ending at times?!

How is She?

2009-07-26T19:40:00.008+10:00

I met this cute little girl last year in March when Mom was doing her daily radiotherapy treatment.

This little girl had brain tumour and also had her treatment during that period of time.

There was one morning she walked out of the therapy room with a grumpy face and walked passed us with her cute little frustrated look.

I guess she wouldn't understand why she needed to go through those treatments!

Before her family discovered that she had a tumour, the family noticed that she was smaller than other children of her age. Her physical growth was kind of slowed down and she often complained of headaches . . .

Then . . . they discovered the tumour. . .

I wonder how is she now?!

. . .

Besides this little girl, we also met a young guy, about 18 years old that had brain tumour.

He was very positive & strong!

And I wonder how is he now!?

. . .

It is always saddening to step into the hospital and see people with sicknesses, particularly with terminal diseases!

. . .

Only If . . . God is willing to bring me to heaven and visit Mom!

. . .

I "Like" Cute Things . . . 2

2009-07-26T18:57:00.007+10:00

Ding Dong - Doraemon!

Wouldn't it be good if there was a Robot Cat like Ding Dong?!

So that I can be teleported back to the past or the future!

Definitely back to the past!

. . . A set of 9 Ding Dong's facial expression figurines + 1 DoRaMi, Doraemon's sister (the yellow one) . . .

Oh, the tall one isn't part of the set, it's a faulty USB :( *Cheated by the eBay seller*

A close friend - colleague suggested that I should put the facial expression that tells of my mood-of-The-Day, lest she cross-over the "fiery boundary" and bitten by a fierce human being . . . He He He!

. . . Cheeky Happy . . .

. . . Grumpy Cutey . . .

. . . Re-Ment miniature . . .

. . . That small ! . . .

. . . My nephew's and my Cute favourite bread back in Malaysia! . . .

Lindt Cafe!

2009-07-25T01:53:00.006+10:00

Besides Cute things, I "like" chocolates too! (And "snacks a.k.a. junk food"!)

. . .

. . . On Collins Street . . .

. . . Yummm . . .

Nice ice cream! Smooth & "distinct", strong chocolate flavour & not too sweet! . . .

. . .

. . . Chocolate cheesecake . . .

. . . S e d a p . . .