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! ! ! S I G H ! ! ! 

Four Years. . .

. . . have come and gone. . .

25th June 2008 - 25th June 2012.

25th June 2008, 12pm - 3 pm, the darkest hours in my life.

A song I came across recently tells a similar story to mine.

Wake me up when september ends.

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

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Miss You Very Much, Ma Ma...

A Year Has Come & Gone

11th June 2012 Marks the One Year Milestone of My Journey in US.

12 months Have Come and Gone...

Day In Day Out, Happy and Unhappy Moments in these 366 Days You Have Always Been With Me!

And You Are and Will Be With Me All The Days of My Life.

Thank You, Daddy God!

I will Have Another Great Year Ahead with You. Amen.

If You were Still Here...

If You were still here and in excellent health, How would You look like now?

If You were still here, how would my life be now?

If You were still here . . .

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You definitely would look Beautiful and Graceful!

My life would be happier and brighter!

We would have endless Great Moments together!

... And I won't be writing this page ...

Believing Right or . . . Left?

Have seen several "unfortunate", "aimless, or "lost" souls here in this small town.

And I have bumped into these 'two particular people' on the bus for 2 - 3 times now.

Today I saw one of the two who usually dress in a way that I could tell they are living in some sort of lifestyle that is trying to find their 'identity', 'peace', meaning to life or "something" by secluding themselves from the world, from the surrounding people, which certain beliefs/groups encourage their followers to do so.

But what I saw was that they sacrificed their comfort to pursue the so called 'peace' or 'identity'. They wandered around, from place to place, dress in a certain way, looked solemn and maybe even choosing not to clean themselves daily, which a very successful person did that too as he or they thought that in this way they would have a better life and health by letting "nature" takes place ...

Today when I saw the guy on the bus I felt 'frustrated' and at the same time pitied him.

He may Believe that by living in this lifestyle might help him to find true peace, identity or meaning to life!

But is there joy in his heart? Is he happy? Has he found the true peace?

As I look at him from behind and thinking that "what he believed in have 'robbed' him of a comfortable and abundant life"...

Suddenly a revelation dawned on Me!

The question came to mind was "Am I Believing Right too"? Am I believing the word of God totally? Every Single Word/Promise of God?!

Why do I pity him yet I myself is believing many lies that the enemies have been telling me instead of believing the Word of God!

There are so many times that I doubted God's Word, His love, His promises, instead I "believed" the lies of the enemies! All these have also been robbing me of the Abundant Life that Jesus has promised!!!

The deep thought for the day is "Believing in the Right or 'Left' Principle/Source verily determines how One lives and what he will get out from this journey on earth!"

Thus, Am I Believing Right??

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56.

30.09.2011.

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You'd be 56 year young...

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If Heaven is as Real as Earth,

There would be a Celebration with the Heavenly Host?!

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Happy Birthday, Ma Ma!

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S t i l l ....... ... !

Recurrence of . . . Sad Dreams

Dreams with real emotions are back ...

The feeling of Hopefulness followed by utter Disappointment and Sadness was Real and Intense!

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. . . Can I be Awaken from This Reality, instead !? . . .