The End of Chapter

Finally, the End of 'The' Chapter has unfolded!

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The whole Chapter isn't a happy one ...

There were More Loss than Gain!

Loss: Precious Ones + Time (youth) + Friendships + etc.......

Gain: A degree and ... Sad experiences ...

The fact that Mum could not be there to witness 'The Day' brought great pain to my heart! That was her wish before passing on!

Also, Could I not lose some Time and Friendships?

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Thought I would only experience some of the incidents at a later stage of life!

But they were beyond Control!

And very unwillingly I have to face them! Not just 1 incident but several!

The study alone was burdensome enough... But some incidents that were Avoidable became Unavoidable!

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The Next Chapter looks 'dark' and uncertain!

Just Met a Big hurdle 2 days ago!

But, what can be Bigger than My God?

Yet my heart still 'sighs'!

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What does my Future look Like? ?

A Timely Meaningful Dream.

Dreamed a meaningful dream this morning.

The setting was in a small restaurant.

There was four waitresses and I was one of the sandwich-maker.

A customer ordered a sandwich with a 'special' sauce.

In the scene I remembered I had put the sauce in the sandwich and the next person was to grill the sandwich.

However, another waitress was "blaming" me that I did not put the 'special' sauce and in the dream the four waitresses were arguing about it and pointed finger on me and each other.

Throughout the fight the boss did not say anything and at the end we asked him to say a "fair" word...

And what the 'Boss' said really convicted my heart.

He said "Why do you guys wanna fight over small matters? There isn't a long time in your life to see each other, yet ......"

I was surprised that I dreamed this dream.

It is indeed true that life is short! And too short to fight over small little matters of who is right or wrong.

It is a timely dream as family will be coming over.

Past experiences tell me that there will be frustration when we go on a family trip.

*Sigh*

I should be anticipating their visitation but at the same time am stressed out and feeling that my Privacy will be intruded...

Think I am a "strange" introvert-melancholic person... One that needs ample time alone... And from past experiences too, the feeling will be strange when meet up with family again... But I shall pray for the Love and Grace of God to enjoy this family trip!

As Life is too short ...!

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- An Introvert's Feeling, "Strangeness" & Complexity is beyond her own Comprehension -