Two in One . . .

Thought # 1

"OHHH!!! That Story Actually Came from That Series! ! !"

I SEE!!!

But background is different?!?!

"What is Wrong seemed "Right"?!?

-_-"

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Thought # 2

"Human ain't like a Computer, There is No DEL Button! Though I Wish!"

But Hang On, nowadays, even Deleted Files can be Retrieved!!

H m m m m m m m . . .

Mario Loves Eating Me!

Invisible Mario has been my faithful friend for these few weeks.

He has been chasing me to 'bite & eat' me!

This is because Mushrooms & Mould have grown all over me!

*Wing*wing*Wing*

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Need to communicate with Human!

Need to find some InTeResTing Things to Do!

Need to . . . !

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Ohhh, Mario!!!

M. Chan

Thanks to 1Borneo management for inviting H.K. artists since its opening.

On 6th Nov 2010 four artists were here to promote a TVB series.

And I have the privilege to shake M. Chan's hand! (Yiipeee!!!)

He was very Charming, Cool, Friendly & Warm!

I Like!

:) :) :)

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If I Have a Time Machine!

The 'Season' of Day Dreaming is here again!

Dreaming If I could have a Time Machine to go back to the Days and Years that I wish to start all over again.

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For this Moment, I would want to go back to year 2003-2004!

To Start Over again The Life in Melbourne!

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Perhaps I would have . . . ?

Perhaps I could have not done . . . ?

Perhaps things would be different . . . ?

Perhaps I could meet . . . ?

Perhaps . . . Perhaps . . . Perhaps . . .

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I can only "Dream & Wish"!

But, At least . . . . . !

Seek 1st the Kingdom of God?

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
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Question: What is the kingdom of God?
Answer: Serving? Mission? Doing things for God?
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Romans 14:17 For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit,
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Now I know what is "seek first the kingdom of God! Is to seek Righteousness, which I have in Christ Jesus, and Peace and Joy in the Holy Spirit!!! All these while I thought I have to serve, do mission, and do this and that to seek first the kingdom of God then all those blessings will be added to me! No, but is to seek first the righteousness in Christ, and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit!!
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Thus, Seek First the Kingdom of God is to make sure Every Day I know I am Righteous in Christ and my heart is in Peace and Joy in the Holy Spirit!!
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(This can also be a challenge, as I'm not a joyful person and always not in peace! Ha Ha! *Difficult Bim*)
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Have been blessed and set free by listening to sermons on Grace of God! My Walk with God is, continually, set free from Religiosity (must do this and that to please God & seek His kingdom, if not I'm Sinning, etc etc). "Religion" has put me in bondage all these while. I am not a strong person (I'm tofu) to do this and that for His kingdom, thus, led me to self-condemnation.
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Thank God for His words, Thank God for the people whom He raises to expound on His word!
Thank God for J. Prince, through him, I can understand God's heart and Word more, and more!
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(When one have the righteousness in Christ and the peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, surely serving and doing mission are the natural "act" rather than the Qualification to be Blessed).

5 a.m.

Have been awaken at 5 a.m. for the past few days.

Mind & heart is disturbed.

Could it be due to Grandma's fall and fractured bone?

Or because I have been listening to Grace sermons & Resting in God, hence, the enemy is trying to pull me down?

-_-'

*SiGh*

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Rest in God's peace!

24th October 2010

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Two Years Ago, on This Day!

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And A Moment Later, Will be The Reunion Day!

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My Beloved Cars

My First Car - Honda Jazz - Silver

Sept 2004 - Feb 2009

Good Lessons were learnt from buying my First 'First Hand' Car.

Glad that I learnt it at an early stage.

Question: Was it really needed to buy a 1st hand car at that stage & age?

Also, the process of purchasing it taught me a good lesson.

Salesmen would Do Anything to earn sales!

And I think girls are always victims of salesmen, especially someone like me!

I think I have a sign on my forehand saying "Please Rip Me Off"!

But I know God will bless me back in many folds! Amen!

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My Beloved Car after the Jazz

Mini Cooper!

- 2009 -

And I was "cheated & ripped off" too in purchasing this car!

GREaaattTT!?

Nevertheless, I loved it very much!

And God has blessed me with an Angelic buyer for me to sell it off!

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My Next Beloved Car Shall Be!?

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Have a Guess!?

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Can't wait to Own It!

Looking forward, very much, to drive it to enjoy "Freedom and Liberty"!

Car has been my daily companion for the past years of solitude!

A square space for me to Breathe, to heave sighs and be away from the "Reality"!

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Double, Twice, Tandem, Two, Dua, 2? ?

"A particular Incident had to happen TWICE, Why? ?"
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1st incident of Lost Ticket: Placed the parking ticket in the jacket's pocket and it dropped out while taking the mobile phone out in a Big Shopping centre!
End result: Found it with God's Grace & Favour!
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2nd incident of Lost ticket: Put the parking ticket near the car door and it fell off when the door was opened. This incident happened 2-3 weeks after the 1st incident.
End result: God kept the ticket there too! Surely it's God's Grace!
Lesson Learned: Put parking ticket at a safe place! - Don't "assume" it is safe, Don't be lazy, Don't be careless and for the sake of convenience!
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1st incident of Accidental File Deletion: Thought some files were transferred from my hard drive into sis' computer, hence deleted it AND worst more, very hastily my hand clicked "empty recycle bin". I had never been so efficient in deleting and emptying recycle bin BUT this time was an exception, exception ... then ReALiSeD ... OH NO!!!
End result: Found a way to recover them back. Thank God for His Grace! But had a minor heart attack!
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2nd incident of Accidental File Deletion: Deleted sis' iPhone's Important notes, calendar and contacts! And this happened also 3 weeks apart from the 1st incident of Accidental deletion!
End result: Am still waiting for God's miracle to restore the Important Data! I still couldn't recover using any program and not even from the iTunes backup!
:( . . . SIGH ! ! ! . . . :(
Lesson Learned: See and Read Files and Instructions Carefully! Don't Assume!! Must Pay Attention to small messages and Be more Detail!
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Why do I have to learn One Particular Lesson Twice within a short time frame?
What is God trying to tell me??
Sigh, I must now learn my lesson from the very 1st Incident!
Maybe Twice will nail the Message hard into me! ?
:(
Oh Daddy in Heaven, please Help me to recover the data!
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Happy (55th) Birthday Mama!

Wonder how did God and Angels in heaven celebrated Mama's Birthday!

@_@"

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Happy Happy Happy Birthday Cutey Little Mama!!!

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Hope You are having a Wonderful Day!

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~ 'Til We Meet Again ~

B and M's Wedding & Reunion 180910

- First attempt in video making -

"Failed" - says Tong Tong.

- Take Two ! -

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Video-making (with Mac iMovie) can be fun ... and time-consuming too!

Note: Quality of the pictures is compromised due to several reasons.

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- Putting pictures into 'perspective' -

Hope this video will re-live the 2-day K.L. trip on a digital brain. . .

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Enjoy

A Meet-up after 3- and 6- Years!

At KLIA airport now after 2 days of meet-up with good old friends from Melbourne. Thanks to Mr & Mrs Ben Wong for giving us the opportunity to catch up again after we last said Good-Bye in year 2004 & 2008. And Now it is the time to say "Good-Bye" Again!! Sad moment kicks in again! :( 48 hrs passed just like 48 mins. So, when will we meet up again? Perhaps at the next wedding?!

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It is a great blessing to be able to study overseas and meet people from different parts of the world! But it can also be a very painful moment when it is the time to part to continue our own journey in different parts of the world! The Great Friendship built have to "Pause" at that point of Time! And may (or may not) "Resume" when the right time comes again! Which I Do Not know When will it be!

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That's (my) L. I. F. E.! I have learnt thus far that:

- Happy Moments last only for a Short While, And there comes the Sad Moments that seemed to last for a longer time!

- Can't Always get what I wish to! But Moments that I very much Hoped not to Come had Come!

- Etc, Etc, Etc, Sad, Etc . . . . . .

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Anyway, Congrates to Mr & Mrs Ben Wong! The wedding was Great! It was a Happy moment to witness their Big Day! Happy smiles are seen all over their faces! Surely they'll have a Great Journey together!! Wish them A Great & Happy Life Together with Everlasting Love!

Is The Grass on the Other Side Really Greener ? ?

Had a chat with Sis about what should have been done in the past, so called, to have a "better" future...!

But How would we know that the 'Alternative Choices/Paths' would be better than what Had Been Chosen and Walked??

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Grass on the other side of the pasture always 'looks' Greener!

But is it always Greener (and Better)??

It May Not be!

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God knows what is Best for those Who Loves Him!

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Thank God for His Blessings and Guidance Thus Far!

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- Will Love & Appreciate the People, especially Love Ones, and Things we have! -

A Certain Song To A Certain Friend

And so, certain songs can speak what my heart felt in the past few years.

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To Some Friends, this song would be it: 我.太.難.被.感.動. (P. Nan)

I'm not all perfect, I'm with flaws too ...

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And to Certain Friends (including Buddies): 愛.在.記.憶.中.找.你. (R. Lam)

The Good times shared will always be in my Memory - although some friendships had a 'short time span' but they are treasured!

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Bye Bye Melbourne for the Time Being . . .

Hopefully ........ I'll be back!

The End of Chapter

Finally, the End of 'The' Chapter has unfolded!

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The whole Chapter isn't a happy one ...

There were More Loss than Gain!

Loss: Precious Ones + Time (youth) + Friendships + etc.......

Gain: A degree and ... Sad experiences ...

The fact that Mum could not be there to witness 'The Day' brought great pain to my heart! That was her wish before passing on!

Also, Could I not lose some Time and Friendships?

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Thought I would only experience some of the incidents at a later stage of life!

But they were beyond Control!

And very unwillingly I have to face them! Not just 1 incident but several!

The study alone was burdensome enough... But some incidents that were Avoidable became Unavoidable!

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The Next Chapter looks 'dark' and uncertain!

Just Met a Big hurdle 2 days ago!

But, what can be Bigger than My God?

Yet my heart still 'sighs'!

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What does my Future look Like? ?

A Timely Meaningful Dream.

Dreamed a meaningful dream this morning.

The setting was in a small restaurant.

There was four waitresses and I was one of the sandwich-maker.

A customer ordered a sandwich with a 'special' sauce.

In the scene I remembered I had put the sauce in the sandwich and the next person was to grill the sandwich.

However, another waitress was "blaming" me that I did not put the 'special' sauce and in the dream the four waitresses were arguing about it and pointed finger on me and each other.

Throughout the fight the boss did not say anything and at the end we asked him to say a "fair" word...

And what the 'Boss' said really convicted my heart.

He said "Why do you guys wanna fight over small matters? There isn't a long time in your life to see each other, yet ......"

I was surprised that I dreamed this dream.

It is indeed true that life is short! And too short to fight over small little matters of who is right or wrong.

It is a timely dream as family will be coming over.

Past experiences tell me that there will be frustration when we go on a family trip.

*Sigh*

I should be anticipating their visitation but at the same time am stressed out and feeling that my Privacy will be intruded...

Think I am a "strange" introvert-melancholic person... One that needs ample time alone... And from past experiences too, the feeling will be strange when meet up with family again... But I shall pray for the Love and Grace of God to enjoy this family trip!

As Life is too short ...!

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- An Introvert's Feeling, "Strangeness" & Complexity is beyond her own Comprehension -

Reminiscing Childhood Toy...

Lego was one of my childhood toys!

Yes, it's more of boys' toy, that was because I was influenced by cousin (brother). I thought it was a "challenging" toy to train my brain & patience!

Of course I did play Barbie doll, play doh, cooking, doctor & nurse, teddy bears (Forever Friend is my Cutest bear! Will share a story on this bear next time), swords and a mixture of other toys...

Played both girls' and boys' toys was because I had boy and girl childhood friends, as Mum was running a nursery (child care) when I was young...

And Here I am, back to "building" Lego.

And It is For A ReasoN! ! !

In the past few days, scenes of me playing Lego flashed back.

Those scenes brought back the warmth, the care & the love of Mum!

That was at the age of 8-9, where Mum bought Lego for me after exams to reward me as well as for my birthdays!

Those were the Happy Days!

I reminisced & missed very much!

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Thus, I have decided to re-visit my Childhood Toy!

I will build a Lego Family!

The physical family is incomplete until I meet Mum again in Heaven, hence, this Lego Family will be a Complete Family!

In this Family, Mum, Dad, Grandma, Grandma, Sis, Sis, Bro-in-Law, Nephew and ME will be the characters in the Lego Family! And of course God, Jesus and Holy Spirit will be with us too!

This will be a Family that is always together and always Joyful, and Happy!

There will Never Be sadness, sickness, sin or any other negative things! But only Blessings and Good Things will be there!

Mum will always be with us! Forever a Complete Home!

And Here begins My Project to a Family Lego!

. : My Lego Family : .

Time Machine !

If I could invent a 'Time Machine', I would definitely turn back time to at least 11 yeas ago!

Wish I did Not come to Australia to study 11 years ago!

Wish I could live closely with Mami for 11 years more.

With the 11 years I gained knowledge but lost beloved Mami and the 11 years' time that I could have spent with her!

Worth the 11 years??

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.:Time Machine:.

Perhaps with Time Machine I can fast forward to the Time of Reunion, to skip walking through sad moments !

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For now I will learn to treasure the moments left in the future with Close Ones until I ride on a Time Machine to Heaven!

But I will still continue 'dreaming' to go back or forward to Happy Times with Mami & whole family!

You're Not Forgotten!

.: 25th June 2008 - 25th June 2010 :.

I still wish & hope that you will be healed, in my dream!

Last night I dreamed of carrying your physical body to a prayer event...

On the way to the event, I was full of hope & faith, I prayed for your healing...

And my heart was filled with Joy upon seeing you Resurrected!!!!!

That Joy was Real in my dream!

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But It faded away when reality awakened me!

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Miss you very much, Mami!

Hope to reunite with you ReaL SooN!!!

The Awesomeness of Parents, Grandparents.

Someone stated the following line on FB:

"The older I get the more I see how awesome my parents are!"

I can't agree more on this ! ! !

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Seeing nephew growing up each day, each year in a "fast rate", I really wished he would grow up every day knowing and appreciating his parents' love from young... before it is too late...!

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It is heart-wrenching when parents' love is not appreciated by the children... or they do not know how much their parents love and care for them... and I realised this at a "late" stage...

Seeing grandma getting old with "old-people sickness" really breaks my heart and at the same time struggling to cope with the stress caused by the "sickness"...

She is widowed at a young age and had to take care of four young children single-handedly. Consequently, fears constantly filled her heart since then and they are scarily manifested in her sleep, where she will scream ALOUD and turn very fearful in the middle of the night...

The stress, the fear, the hardship that she had gone through I would never know!

Grandma was very sad when her only brother passed away. And she told me how both of them ran away from China to Malaysia to survive from the "Japanese era". My heart ached upon hearing the story, and that was during my primary school years...

Now, because of her "old" sickness, many times I could not bear with the stress that she is giving... and I felt sad many times when I ran low on patience... The fear that she is showing now is the manifestation of fear she built in yesteryears... I have not gone through what she had gone through and how could I tell her not to be afraid unsympathetically?? *a slap to self*

I would never know exactly the hardship that grandmas and parents had gone through, hope I will still have time to appreciate grandma ... and dad...!

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Need to get out from the emotional and melancholic state soon, which happens every time after returning from home. But afterall, it is not a bad emotional state hey?

There is a Beginning ... & ... an Ending

There is a beginning for everything... and sadly there is also an ending to many things, if not all!

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The Day of Birth and the Day of Death!

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A beginning to a friendship, with a "Hello" . . . and many times there is also a "Bye" to friendships!

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The First Day of School and The last!

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The Ending to A Sweet Dream with tears!

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The hopeful beginning to a Certain Dream/Desire that may end with "faded hope"!

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. . . There is a time for everything . . .

And When can there be no more sadness to endings or no ending to happy moments?!

. . . ? Soon ? . . .

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Isaiah 40: 28 - 31

28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, The Lord, The Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.

29 He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength.

30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall,

31 But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength;

They shall mount up with wings like eagles,

They shall run and not be weary,

They shall walk and not faint.

Siu Wan Kat!

- Siu Kat -

The unfortunate thing is that buyer can't choose which one they want!

1st Selection by Sis!

2nd Selection by Me!

3rd Selection by Sis!

Got the same one!! :(

Shall sell it off ! ? !

*Lelong!*

Three D.

1st three D. cinema in KK

. . . ! YeAy !. . .

Yes, am outdated :P

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*Toast* for my Extended Holiday!

More Food June 2010

Donashi! Big Apple Sushi-like Donuts!!

Salmon-like Donut!

*Cute*

A New Restaurant!

Quite a few unique drinks but . . .

Oh, what a flavour from Pringles! !

June 2010 KK

My favourite food - Pan Min - "Wood" Noodle!

YUM!!

Yuk Guat Cha - Bak Kut Teh!

Also another of my favourites!

Sashimi, My favourite too!

This is a new Japanese restaurant in town! Thought it would be good since they have other branches in the "Eating Heaven - HK" but not as expected! Nonetheless, the Goose Liver sushi is commendable!

Another relatively new restaurant in town! More varieties than another "Old restaurant"!

Will go back for other dishes!

Sweet (plain) Croissant - Yummy!!

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Shall take more pictures of yummy foods,

especially my beloved milk tea/cocoa with mini pearl and coconut cube

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I shall extend my holiday? *Sigh*

New Toy Collection!

*TaaaaRrraaa*

Oh, the tiny toys behind are not mine!

*WinK*

Still Going On...?

Used to get bored after few days into a long holiday & kept looking for things to do.

But now I wish to have a long, long holiday ... to rest my mind!

After this holiday not too sure when will be the next one, one that I can enjoy without "burdens"!

... This short holiday is still one with "burdens" ...

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? What, Where, When, How ?

?

The Aviator Fever!

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Which is M.i.N.e?!

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Home sweAt Home !

Am glad to be home!!

Ma Ma I am Home!!!

But for a short while only :((

Yes, it's humid and hot here, sweAt glands activated after hibernated for 3 months... *yikes*

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Checked through the immigration officer at the airport, he didn't look friendly and I didn't quite smile then he said something that made me smile "sweetly" when he looked through my passport - "sekarang makin cantik" . . . HA HA HA!

But when sis saw me her word just had to take my sweet smile away! >.<

"Oh sis, you look older!!!" What a greeting to me!?

So does that mean as I age I look makin cantik?! HA HA ... I wish! But definitely I can really see myself aged more in the past 1 year ... hhmmmm ! !

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Shall enjoy this break! Shall ask for God's Grace & Love to be with me and overflow from me to people around!

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FreSsSh seafood here I come!!! Am Deprived of yummy and healthy foods for the past months especially fresh yummy fishes!!! But the deprival actually made me appreciate food (things & people) more!

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Yeay, Happy Holiday!

A Roller Coaster Day!

Started off the Day with excitement by doing a silly thing, Followed by Disappointment and Sadness But thank God He provided the way out for me!!!

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The Silliness

That is none other than queuing up at 6 am in front of Apple to get the iPad! The store opened at 8 am and guess what? At 9 am the queue was SHORT! Arrrgghhh... I could just have gone there at 9 am and gotten more sleeps!!!

HA HA but I think it is a different experience!

The shop was covered with black curtains and at 8 am it was down and all the staffs were jumping with excitement to welcome us in!!

Indeed it was quite an excitement although it was a bit silly! He He, I think in life one just have to do some silly things from time to time to have some good laughters! :)

And for my beloved sister, just have to wake up early to get one, which I won't do it for myself!!

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The first in line! Sat there from Thursday Night 10 pm!!!

Covered up!

The queue in front of me! ~ 50 ppl

Hid my face from the camera!!!

The long queue behind me!

7:50 am, Getting Ready!!!

8 am!!!

The Product on my sis' lap!

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The Disappointment

Got my results back in the afternoon and the first look was really saddening & disappointing! Was really shattered by the results! I mean Really Shattered (but this time I kept proclaiming God's love, nothing can separate me from His love, which is different from the past Tough times that I had gone through!

Thank God that He arranged everything just perfectly in time!

Emailed supervisor who is on holiday in Europe about my results and just at the very right time, which is God's favour, she checked her email and she just happened to got back from another part of the Europe and couldn't fall asleep.

She called me all the way from Europe to go through with me the comments from the examiners and consoled me because I sounded very negative in the email, saying that I might not be award with the degree! And I was comforted! THANK GOD! Otherwise I'd have a miserable break!!!

She said this is part of learning and growing! Have to be strong and the comments made are very good guidance for my career. The examiner is an experienced editor!

Should see things positively although for a first timer it will definitely be too much to bear!

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Thank God for the right timing!! He arranges everything very well when I trust in Him and ask of His Grace and Favour!

Ahhhh this also means that I would not be having a real and long break! Now I understand why things happened in a certain way for the past few weeks!

God is always ahead of me and ahead of time!

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Really THANK GOD For HIS Love, Grace & Mercy!!!

Lost . . . . . AnD Found !

Lost this ticket while taking out the phone in a shopping center!
It would cost $20.00 to get a new ticket!
I was dismayed when I couldn't find it!
I D.I.S.L.I.K.E. the feeling of LOSING some things or precious someone, although a ticket may not be that PreCious!
But I have EnOuGh of those despair feelings!
Almost gave up finding the ticket, because I was tired by the thought of losing it and need to pay for it and tired of searching for it in the big mall!
But I did not give up! I just Dislike that feeling of 'LOST'! And I want to "Fight" back for the Joy of Finding It again or at least NoT needing to pay for it! -_-'

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Ha ha ha, out of desperation, I even tried to get a new ticket from the entrance ticket booth but couldn't because there was no vehicle & ticket was not issued & I kinda knew that it may not be the R.I.G.H.T. way, but I didn't quite care!

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My last resort was to stir up my FaiTh & pray for God's grace, favour & mercy!
Kept looking & praying for it although at the back of my mind I knew that the chance of finding it is quite SLiM but at the same time Hoping, Praying & putting Faith in God!
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Thank GOD that He kept it there on that spot for me to find it!
Thank God that I sought for His Grace & He granted me the Hope & Joy!

=)
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p/s: $20 may not be of much value but knowing that God Cares for me Is Priceless!

Cuaca Melbie ...

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Cuaca di Melb dibagaikan 4 musim dalam 1 hari!

Sepertiny juga 'Cuaca - emosi' Seseorang ...

2305 saat yang lalu hatinya rasa mendung, sejuk, sepi tetapi 2305 saat kemudian hatinya rasa "lega" & cerah . . .

Cuaca - emosi kitaran ini akan berlaku lagi dan lagi . . .

Sehingga . . . . . . . . .

Happy Birthday Tong Tong, 2010!

Happy Birthday to My Dear Tong Tong Sis!
Pray that God's Love is always filling your Cute lil' Heart! And His favours always be upon you, so that you can always bless me! HA HA!
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~ 16th May 2008 was the last time Mama celebrated Tong Tong's Birthday! ~

Mum was still well in the month of May 2008 ... Couldn't believed how fast Mom's body deteriorated within the few days before 25th June.
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Happy Birthday Tong Tongy, hope that I'll have many years more to celebrate with you!