Is The Grass on the Other Side Really Greener ? ?

Had a chat with Sis about what should have been done in the past, so called, to have a "better" future...!

But How would we know that the 'Alternative Choices/Paths' would be better than what Had Been Chosen and Walked??

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Grass on the other side of the pasture always 'looks' Greener!

But is it always Greener (and Better)??

It May Not be!

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God knows what is Best for those Who Loves Him!

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Thank God for His Blessings and Guidance Thus Far!

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- Will Love & Appreciate the People, especially Love Ones, and Things we have! -

A Certain Song To A Certain Friend

And so, certain songs can speak what my heart felt in the past few years.

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To Some Friends, this song would be it: 我.太.難.被.感.動. (P. Nan)

I'm not all perfect, I'm with flaws too ...

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And to Certain Friends (including Buddies): 愛.在.記.憶.中.找.你. (R. Lam)

The Good times shared will always be in my Memory - although some friendships had a 'short time span' but they are treasured!

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Bye Bye Melbourne for the Time Being . . .

Hopefully ........ I'll be back!

The End of Chapter

Finally, the End of 'The' Chapter has unfolded!

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The whole Chapter isn't a happy one ...

There were More Loss than Gain!

Loss: Precious Ones + Time (youth) + Friendships + etc.......

Gain: A degree and ... Sad experiences ...

The fact that Mum could not be there to witness 'The Day' brought great pain to my heart! That was her wish before passing on!

Also, Could I not lose some Time and Friendships?

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Thought I would only experience some of the incidents at a later stage of life!

But they were beyond Control!

And very unwillingly I have to face them! Not just 1 incident but several!

The study alone was burdensome enough... But some incidents that were Avoidable became Unavoidable!

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The Next Chapter looks 'dark' and uncertain!

Just Met a Big hurdle 2 days ago!

But, what can be Bigger than My God?

Yet my heart still 'sighs'!

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What does my Future look Like? ?

A Timely Meaningful Dream.

Dreamed a meaningful dream this morning.

The setting was in a small restaurant.

There was four waitresses and I was one of the sandwich-maker.

A customer ordered a sandwich with a 'special' sauce.

In the scene I remembered I had put the sauce in the sandwich and the next person was to grill the sandwich.

However, another waitress was "blaming" me that I did not put the 'special' sauce and in the dream the four waitresses were arguing about it and pointed finger on me and each other.

Throughout the fight the boss did not say anything and at the end we asked him to say a "fair" word...

And what the 'Boss' said really convicted my heart.

He said "Why do you guys wanna fight over small matters? There isn't a long time in your life to see each other, yet ......"

I was surprised that I dreamed this dream.

It is indeed true that life is short! And too short to fight over small little matters of who is right or wrong.

It is a timely dream as family will be coming over.

Past experiences tell me that there will be frustration when we go on a family trip.

*Sigh*

I should be anticipating their visitation but at the same time am stressed out and feeling that my Privacy will be intruded...

Think I am a "strange" introvert-melancholic person... One that needs ample time alone... And from past experiences too, the feeling will be strange when meet up with family again... But I shall pray for the Love and Grace of God to enjoy this family trip!

As Life is too short ...!

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- An Introvert's Feeling, "Strangeness" & Complexity is beyond her own Comprehension -

Reminiscing Childhood Toy...

Lego was one of my childhood toys!

Yes, it's more of boys' toy, that was because I was influenced by cousin (brother). I thought it was a "challenging" toy to train my brain & patience!

Of course I did play Barbie doll, play doh, cooking, doctor & nurse, teddy bears (Forever Friend is my Cutest bear! Will share a story on this bear next time), swords and a mixture of other toys...

Played both girls' and boys' toys was because I had boy and girl childhood friends, as Mum was running a nursery (child care) when I was young...

And Here I am, back to "building" Lego.

And It is For A ReasoN! ! !

In the past few days, scenes of me playing Lego flashed back.

Those scenes brought back the warmth, the care & the love of Mum!

That was at the age of 8-9, where Mum bought Lego for me after exams to reward me as well as for my birthdays!

Those were the Happy Days!

I reminisced & missed very much!

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Thus, I have decided to re-visit my Childhood Toy!

I will build a Lego Family!

The physical family is incomplete until I meet Mum again in Heaven, hence, this Lego Family will be a Complete Family!

In this Family, Mum, Dad, Grandma, Grandma, Sis, Sis, Bro-in-Law, Nephew and ME will be the characters in the Lego Family! And of course God, Jesus and Holy Spirit will be with us too!

This will be a Family that is always together and always Joyful, and Happy!

There will Never Be sadness, sickness, sin or any other negative things! But only Blessings and Good Things will be there!

Mum will always be with us! Forever a Complete Home!

And Here begins My Project to a Family Lego!

. : My Lego Family : .

Time Machine !

If I could invent a 'Time Machine', I would definitely turn back time to at least 11 yeas ago!

Wish I did Not come to Australia to study 11 years ago!

Wish I could live closely with Mami for 11 years more.

With the 11 years I gained knowledge but lost beloved Mami and the 11 years' time that I could have spent with her!

Worth the 11 years??

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.:Time Machine:.

Perhaps with Time Machine I can fast forward to the Time of Reunion, to skip walking through sad moments !

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For now I will learn to treasure the moments left in the future with Close Ones until I ride on a Time Machine to Heaven!

But I will still continue 'dreaming' to go back or forward to Happy Times with Mami & whole family!

You're Not Forgotten!

.: 25th June 2008 - 25th June 2010 :.

I still wish & hope that you will be healed, in my dream!

Last night I dreamed of carrying your physical body to a prayer event...

On the way to the event, I was full of hope & faith, I prayed for your healing...

And my heart was filled with Joy upon seeing you Resurrected!!!!!

That Joy was Real in my dream!

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But It faded away when reality awakened me!

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Miss you very much, Mami!

Hope to reunite with you ReaL SooN!!!