When Dreams are The Only Place I want to Be In!

Since Mom's passing away, dream is the only place where I can see and talk to her!

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For the first 12 months, I had Reccuring dreams about me praying Desperately for her to be healed!

Almost on alternate days, if not every night!

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Those dreams were very very, very REAL & Vivid!!!

I can Intensely feel the Desperation and Sadness in the dreams!

Even after waking up those emotions were still very strong & depressing! !

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In some dreams I was SO Happy & Overjoyed that Mom was healed!

But I was Utterly Disappointed when I knew it was . . . Just A Dream!

There were times that I wept after waking up from those dreams!

In one dream, I kept asking Mom to "Must Remember ME! Must remember Me!!! . . . I kept repeating it! And she said she'll remember my birthday! . . . Then I woke up! at 4 a.m.

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After the 12 months, slowly my dreams about Mom were less saddening but more conversational & happy!

Those latter dreams had the scene of old days, at the old house & of younger age!

Some dreams were about her asking me to be a good girl!!

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My Need for Mom's care & love is "manifested" & "fulfilled" in my dreams.

My heart is very much longing for Mom!

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Now dreams are the only Place where I can See, Converse & feel Her "Presence, Care & Love!!

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For now any emotions that are built up in me will be released in my dreams, as there is no other place to . . .

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Hope to pen down the dreams about Mom, lest my memory is fading away!

And Hope to have more happy dreams about Mom!!!

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Dream - My only way & place to feel Mom's Presence & Love again!

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