Monday, May 17, 2010

Happy Birthday Tong Tong, 2010!

Happy Birthday to My Dear Tong Tong Sis!
Pray that God's Love is always filling your Cute lil' Heart! And His favours always be upon you, so that you can always bless me! HA HA!
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~ 16th May 2008 was the last time Mama celebrated Tong Tong's Birthday! ~
Mum was still well in the month of May 2008 ... Couldn't believed how fast Mom's body deteriorated within the few days before 25th June.
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Happy Birthday Tong Tongy, hope that I'll have many years more to celebrate with you!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

What do I know Apart from Wasting $$?

In the midst of job searching...
And I'm struck with fear, low self-confidence & "anxiety"...
Reading those job descriptions led me to doubt about my capability, expertise, skills and questioned myself what am I good at/for?
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In the eyes' of some people I'm someone that often "waste" money on gadgets, food, traveling and etc, etc, and may not have given much thoughts about my future, my career, my life! !
But the struggles that I've gone through and going through in me they could not see . . . ! !
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Come to think about it, it may be "true" that I only how to "waste" $ - and this may be why I'm struck with fear & low confidence during this job-searching time. I am not even convinced by myself that I can "Do it"! And with the several factors to consider in hunting for a job made "my head even bigger"!
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But I shall not be deceived by those negative thoughts ...
I trust that My Beloved Daddy in Heaven shall guide me & provide for me!!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Obey your Parents And . . .

And so I went to church to "celebrate" Mother's Day & for the Healing Service...
Anticipated the "scenario" would be so...!
Surely it was a bit awkward but what can I do?
One of the 10 commandments was shared, which was on "Honour your father & mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you" ...
Surely, it is a blessing to live long enough to see your next 2-3 generations prospering, but what is the true meaning to have a long life?
If one died early does that mean the person did not obey the parents?! Surely not!!
If one is given 100 years to live but did not enjoy life and fulfil his/her destiny as much as another person who only had 50 years of life but enjoyed & fulfilled his/her destiny within the "short time", would not the person who lived 50 years had a "longer life"? He/she had enjoyed and done more than the person who lived 100 years yet fulfilled lesser things ...
. . . I don't hope & wish to live too long but I hope to fulfil my destiny before I meet Jesus face to face, hopefully not too long to go!
Jesus had only walked on earth for 33 odd years but He fulfilled His "Mission" on earth!
(Ok, I think I'm being a bit sensitive here, surely having a long life is a blessing from God, shall not twist God's word but I do want to understand the real meaning of "life" or a "long life")
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. : Happy Mama's Day : .

Saturday, May 8, 2010

The Two Words . . .

'Sorry & Thank You'
The two words that are often said . . .
And many times the word 'Sorry' is said too late . . . !
But still hoping that the "situations" can turn from "bad" to good . . .
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Thank You, the expression of gratitude for the "things" offered or given, from the little things like giving way to others, opening doors, to friendship offered!
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Surely many times in different situations these two words have "lost" the real meaning but it is still better Said than Not!

Monday, April 26, 2010

The Introvert Me...

Definitions of Introverts from the internet:
"Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people. Introverts are more concerned with the inner world of the mind. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."
"Introverts make up about 60% of the gifted population but only about 25-40% of the general population."
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"Introverts have an inward focus and aren't usually the life of the party. They have a strong sense of self that can make them feel highly self-conscious around other people – making walking into a crowded room a little nerve-wracking. Introverts process their emotions, thoughts, and observations internally. They can be social people, but reveal less about themselves than extroverts do. Introverts are more private, and less public. Introverts tend to get their energy from within, so being with people is draining. After a day filled with people or activities, introverts tend to feel exhausted and empty. To recharge their batteries introverts need to be alone reading, daydreaming, painting, or gardening – any solo activity fills them up again. This doesn't mean introverts have to live alone in a cave in the hills or on Walden Pond; they just need quiet time to come back to themselves. The energy source for introverts is from within."
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I pretty much fit into the above definitions of introverts... I'm indeed exhausted after being around with people for 7 hrs and especially people who talk a lot & required my attention & response . . .
But I can't either be with people who are too quiet & couldn't strike a conversation, which can drain my energy too! GreaT . . . So what do I want?!?
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Being an introvert really makes me think and evaluate myself too much and would often condemn myself.
And it can be quite challenging to "live fully in the Grace of God" as I tend to think about the actions, thoughts and deeds that I have done wrong and I'd start to feel "guilty" or "bad" . . .
But I should experience the Grace of God to live my life to the fullest . . .
Well...... then i should Not feel guilty of the 'right things that I have NOT done'! ! !
And obviously I can't... Guilt is filling my heart . . .
And so is "exhaustion" filling my body, heart & mind after being with a group of people for 7 hrs & hiked for 30 mins ++ . . .
. . . Guess it's time to recharge! Good Night My Cute & Beloved Ma Ma! . . .
. . . Hmm, I should pray for transformation in me so to live in God's Love & Grace before I "rest in peace". . .

Thursday, April 22, 2010

FaithFulness...

. : Faithfulness : .
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"... be a husband of 1 wife ..."
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Was chatting with a friend about boy-girl-relationship recently...
The friend thinks that guys should be Faithful to his girlfriend/wife, which I totally Agree!
And so should women to the boyfriend/husband!
He added "guys should also be responsible ... "
... Sounds like he would be a really good boyfriend/husband! ...
I've heard it many times that a relationship would get stale after few years into it . . . And is this a good reason to be unfaithful, particularly for the guys? ! ?
Why can't keep the sweet momentum going on forever?
I guess, both party should work out the relationship and keep it growing Healthily, Happily & Sweetly!
In the conversation with the friend, I made a point that guys are more prone to be unfaithful than women, but he disagreed!
But I still think it is true that girls are more faithful and girls' heart can easily be won with guys showering more care and love to the girls...
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Guys should court and appreciate the girls more and more each day to win the girl's heart and the girls respond in sweetness to keep the relationship growing stronger and stronger!
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Apart from B - G relationship, one should be faithful to family members, friends and Especially to God!
Having said that, I should continue to build my faithfulness for God and also be faithful to Family and Friends!
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. : FaithFulness : .

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

The Long Lost Canon-My Colour Effect!

Feeling sleepy after lunch and decided to revisit the 'good old days' album'.
Definitely looking back at those photos gave me nostalgic vibe of the old days & the old Canon camera with 'My Colour Effect'!
Here are some snap shots taken by someone else (not me)

The Stand Out Coke!
Waiting for the truck loaded with tonnes of gas to climb up the slope hence there was ample time to take a pix of it!
My Favourite Festival! - CNY -!
American Brekky in K. K.
. . . Don't know the English name of this flower . . .
. . . CNY tidbits! . . .
Dad's pets!
The Hot Spot for CNY family portraits!
Miss those days of gambling - I mean just purely looking!
. . . Lion Dance waiting for nephew to give red packets! . . .
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Back to work *Endless Yawnz*!